Not for nothing, but after 30 years of trying to treat my treatment resistant depression, I'm a little over a month into Spravato (esketamine) treatment and it seems to be the only thing that's made a difference without intolerable side effects. In fact, I don't remember a time in my life ever when I've felt this way. The heaviness has lifted, not to be replaced by temporary mania or numbness, but a sort of objective clearness. I still have meltdowns and lapses, but they are growing fewer and I can better see them coming. I no longer feel trapped by them or inside of them. I feel more like I walk beside them. I hold their hand and try to navigate the world together. When I can. When I can. Sometimes they rush ahead. But my relationship with my depression is changing. We are equals now. I am learning to converse with it instead of letting it dictate the terms.

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