Amalia Zeichnerin

Here is some #empowering advice by Kelly-Ann Maddox about the "Golden Shadow" - positive parts of you, traits, talents, interests and similar which you have hidden away in your subconscious, but which are actually a vital part of you - traits of you that felt too dangerous, unsafe, too big, too bold for the environment you grew up in.

Kelly-Ann gives advice how to find these golden shadows and also how to deal with them and nurture them. The video is 27 minutes long.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1IL6JiMfro

The Most Important Shadow Work You Will Ever Do

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Show threadAmalia ZeichnerinMar 8

This has reminded me of 3 things I have struggled with:
Internalized queerphobia: For almost 2 decades, I felt genuinely happy for queer people in happy relationships (real and fictional), but I felt like don’t belong in their community, and also that I am not „allowed“ to feel attracted to a woman or another non-male gendered person. So I hid away the golden shadow of being a queer person, so to speak. And I still sometimes struggle with internalized queerphobia, but it has got better.

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Show threadAmalia ZeichnerinMar 8

#Writing fiction: I have always been a storyteller, it’s just who I am. But after a couple of rejections by publishers in my early twenties, I hid away that golden shadow in my inner basement and didn’t write anything for a decade. Thankfully, I started writing again, when self-publishing became easier ca. 10 years ago. I have now published more than 35 novels, novellas, several short stories and non-fiction with essays.

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Show threadAmalia ZeichnerinMar 8

#Singing: I love singing and I am quite good at it, but for severals years, I didn’t dare to sing in my own home, for what might the neighbours in this noisy house think about me? I am still struggling with that, but it has also got better, I sing more often now.

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Show threadAoi_X_KaizakiMar 8
@amalia12 Wow, I wish I could do that. I'm trying self-publishing. I tried it in the past and it felt that it didn't work, but now I'm trying again.
Show threadAmalia ZeichnerinMar 8
@Aoi_X_Kaizaki
Well, I made a lot of beginner mistakes in the beginning. 🙈 I re-published my debut novel after three years, in order to improve it.
But I networked with other writers, and this helped me a lot to improve both my writing and the selfpublishing process.