psychology is a really bizarre thing huh.
I had a really rough scene yesterday- like more intense than Id have liked- and I've already told the guy I dont think I wanna play again.
but theres still this weird part of me thats wants to play within him again. like, we cuddled after and it felt really nice?
idk its like I want affection from him now because he was really hard on me lol.
Something I should probably examine since like, I really dont want the level of intensity I got.