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I have been in a crisis for over a month now, and I would like to remind everyone the effectiveness of suicide prevention.

First off, I have been scared to call the suicide hotline, as I was afraid this was a part of the government, and that if I called, I would be taken away. After research, I can now clearly state this is not true, as the suicide hotline (tel:988) is run by a non-profit charity, and in no way relates to the current government. Although I didn't use the hotline this time, I got help from locals. You probably can too, there are places in most towns and cities that will help with this (some even have physicians who will help) and if you don't live in one, it is definitely worth traveling to.

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Part of the problem was getting overwhelmed by negativity, but I also found out that one of my medications was at fault. In the past week, I have had 2 breakdowns (which I felt were psychotic, and lasted for a combined total of about 3 hours) I have tried to come to terms with the label of insanity, but I don't think this is what it is.

On top of this, my work (which I am completely OCD on, and have not had a day off (not for a holiday, not for a vacation, not even when I am vomiting and feeling weak) from since at least 2016, September 26th, which is over 3434 days and counting) has been falling behind in recent months, and it has been snagging at my morale as well.