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I have been in a crisis for over a month now, and I would like to remind everyone the effectiveness of suicide prevention.

First off, I have been scared to call the suicide hotline, as I was afraid this was a part of the government, and that if I called, I would be taken away. After research, I can now clearly state this is not true, as the suicide hotline (tel:988) is run by a non-profit charity, and in no way relates to the current government. Although I didn't use the hotline this time, I got help from locals. You probably can too, there are places in most towns and cities that will help with this (some even have physicians who will help) and if you don't live in one, it is definitely worth traveling to.

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To make things even worse, I got a cold (rhinovirus) at the absolute worst time (as my mental health has been at an all time low) which just further fueled the fire.

I made the mistake on 2026, February 26th to start embracing these thoughts, feeling that I don't matter, and that it would be best for myself if I just died. My mind was set on 2026, February 28th as the date. This was careless and selfish of me, as I was putting more value in myself than I was in others. I know my family and friends would have been completely devastated had I gone through with it, as it would hurt them far more than it would hurt me, and I would never wish that pain on any of my peers. I had an intervention that lasted well over an hour, and I dropped the action.