seanpm2001 🇺🇦️🇬🇱Feb 27

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I have been in a crisis for over a month now, and I would like to remind everyone the effectiveness of suicide prevention.

First off, I have been scared to call the suicide hotline, as I was afraid this was a part of the government, and that if I called, I would be taken away. After research, I can now clearly state this is not true, as the suicide hotline (tel:988) is run by a non-profit charity, and in no way relates to the current government. Although I didn't use the hotline this time, I got help from locals. You probably can too, there are places in most towns and cities that will help with this (some even have physicians who will help) and if you don't live in one, it is definitely worth traveling to.

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2/11🧵

I have been dealing with depression for about 17 years (since around the age of 8) while I have been having suicidal thoughts since around 2015 (for about 11 years, or since around the age of 14) they come and go, but in the past 2 years, they have been at their worst. I also have Autism and ADHD, which make things a little worse.

I have to disclaim that I am an agnostic (NOT an agnostic atheist) please do not disregard what I am saying because of this, as I respect ALL peaceful religions (and irreligions) not just the 3 biggest ones. Because I am agnostic, I have had to come to terms with the reality that there may be no afterlife, and that if I ended it all, it would just be nothingness for all time.

Feb 27 at 7:05pmWeb
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3/11🧵

We all get one life to live. I have a lot of people who care for me, and I have failed to be as grateful about this as I should be for too long. The world situation as it is right now feels very hopeless, and feelings that everything will end inevitably are present every day. I have ALSO had a large intake of negativity, as I follow up on 32 different wars on a daily basis (including some that have ended, but look like things are heating up again, my strongest focuses are Ukraine, Syria, Sudan, Palestine, Lebanon, Greenland, Myanmar/Burma, Mozambique, Somalia, Yemen, Mali, and Ethiopia, while other wars include Venezuela, Mexico, Columbia, Iran, Taiwan, Libya, Burkina Faso, Niger, Chad, Haiti, Indonesia, Afghanistan, Cameroon, Central African Republic, Democratic Republic of the Congo, Western Sahara, Peru, and Paraguay)

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4/11🧵

I have seen more than I should see because of this. I have seen cities burn to the ground. I have seen people get shot. I have even seen dead children. I wish I could unsee these things. I wish I could go back to my childhood bliss of not knowing how cruel this world can be.

It has gotten really hard to get away from negativity. Anything I look up will usually have news or current events on the second page of results (even if I am just searching up a plant or an animal) we are being drowned in negativity, and all this AI slop that we are being drowned in on top of that doesn't help either (it has also made me feel extra hopeless)