There's not much awareness of what it means to be caretaker for an elder w/ dementia, let alone that having dementia means continually reliving trauma, loss & fear thru each moment.
Bodies may be frail, but memories are experienced as if they were but moments ago, while not knowing those alive now, nor one's own reflection/limitations & the resultant terror.
For the caretaker, it means one moment it feels safe to place attention elsewhere and the next danger, literally. This results in a constant feeling of dread, made all the harder without help. It means even so much as not having adequate rest, nor the ability to safely process & grieve.
I've experienced this myself this past 2wks, w/ help, w/ stable housing & access to food. Yet, I've struggled to safely have any presence online in this time.
Now imagine being w/o housing, w/o coverage for even a hotel, w/o rest, w/o resources. Yet still being there for others, still uplifting others. All while in very real danger & not just for oneself. All while experiencing loss & not having time or safety to grieve.
You read about danger posed by f@sc1sts, but do you uplift those most endangered? Do you help to ensure shelter away from the assholes who mean them harm?
My love Sabi & her mom are in danger, as hotel going back to Nov 20th remains not covered.
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