☑️. I'm a blackgirl
■. According to my THEORY after living a bizarre life is that I'm secretly MJ × WH daughter born in 1992. "Baby Jackson" or "Tiny Houston" because I was kidnapped, before official birth and that's what the Mafia called me
●. My mother is black, my dad Officially is too.. but I don't believe it. I think he's Arabian or Asian
3D as a Child, I was asked "are you black?" I had a black bff and wished my skin to be darker. With sun, I turned very dark. I asked for a black BABYBORN
■. HOOD. I basically grew up like Alicia Keys. My mom is white, and was a single mother with 4 children from several fathers. She divorced her last husband in 1995 and moved to the worst neighborhood of the country.
The Hood
●. I played the Keyboard, a little toypiano. I taught myself to play the Chorus of [Big Big WORLD, 1997] on it when I was 5
●. One of my mom's rich clients once donated us a real KEYBOARD and I was playing it constantly. Copying sheetmusic from the Library
■. 90s/00s. My wish was to be a Musician, but for some reason.. I thought it was just "going to happen" I didn't go after it at all. I just did Music, naturally.
●. My favorite style of music was R&B #MurderINC. Nelly, Ashanti, Destiny's Child.. Alicia Keys later as well.
💬. I really didn't care about BRITNEY/XTINA. Learning that Taylor had a poster of Britney on the wall, made me giggle. Sorry
●. 2001: all my classmates teased me "you look EXACTLY like Michael Jackson" & I knew he was my dad
■. My Life went into ISOLATION after 2003. I had to play a Muslima and by now, I just count as one. My mom, just hid me in the house.. she kept track of me. She made sure she knew where I was at all moments, even GPSapps were used. At a certain point, I wasn't even allowed to go to my room. I had to announce going to the toilet.
●. School: "STRAIGHT HOME, no Friends.. call mama! Bike fast"
●. College: I was only allowed one year
After 18, I was in pure #QUARANTINE.
🏷. I intuitively felt UNSAFE on the streets. I thought I was Paranoid, at thymes. "Everybody looks at me, mama.. am I ugly?" Mama made sure, I only went outside on RARE moments and for a few minutes max. Never alone, only with her or her son.. he was my #Chaperone™. He walked FAST to get me back & forth.
●. I didn't do Schoolparties or Schooltrips, I said no to them. I went to one, and my brother picked me up within 20min
●. My mom never made me a Passport, and I never was on a Plane
■. QUARANTINELIFE. The rest of my life after 18, I spend inside the house.. listening to Music and trying to break down the GASLIGHTING. Nothing made sense, at all. I felt I was being #Brainwashed to think I'm an Arabian, a Turk like my dad. But, I couldn't make sense of "who am I, mama.. what am I doing here. I'm gonna be alone with you forever, I wanna marry"
●. I don't Likey white guys, or ARABIANs. I always liked black guys or ones that act #Hoody
●. "my skin is YELLOW/BROWN. Yours is red"
📂. #BOYS. I never had a boyfriend, I've never even kissed. There were only EW boys in my school and all of them ignored me, then later I was in pure Quarantine. Besides, they're not good enough. Only boys I ever liked were all FAMOUS
. John Grimes (vs) Richard Camacho
🏷. Maybe I searched for a boy like my daddy.. Mickey™ 😔.
. I found them, BTS. I have 7 now
📂. #Mafia. I'm pretty innocent, but from the 00s I did remember my mama giving so many signs that we're in the Mafia. I was annoyed with her at this point, more and more.
"Bitch better have my money"
🏷. I might look LIGHTskin at thymes, it must be a thing.. but I'm just a Mix. I actually have pretty dark skin, compared to others. I'm just never in the photo with anyone, I'm alone
. I'm just Alicia Keys.. or Bad Bhaby in 3D
🏷. I've figured SO MUCH since my escape, "through the window of my room". I figured that I'm a Clowntje™ in the Mafia. I call myself [Tiny Harley Quinn], see. I'm Irish
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📂. #MUSICBIZZ. I was about 10/11 when everybody started to tell me I looked exactly like Michael Jackson.. and it was a total Compliment to me. I was just happy thinking "yeah, he's my dad" and then I didn't even question it. I just assumed, I'd one day be like him! It was an Eery thing.
. It was after I cut my hair short
The Book (2nd Edition)