I remember those appts in the last couple of weeks to months. Every time, I would notice the candle with the sign next to it requesting people be respectful when the candle was lit as someone was losing their beloved fur baby.

Every time I saw it, I knew I was counting the days until that candle would be lit as I held Bailey through his final breaths.

That day came 1 year ago today.

This past year has been brutal, lonely, trying, while also filled with healing, love, and renewal.

Some losses are just too big. Some losses change us in ways that leave us as totally different people.

Bailey was the only stable constant as I found my way in life. My true north, guiding light, best friend, first baby, and soul dog.

He always brought smiles to my face with his bigger than life personality. He reminded me to stop and smell the roses, that the journey is the destination that matters, and that you can always be happy and cheerful when you see a friendly face.

While I didn’t know how I’d survive without him, I finally started to learn how earlier this year. I’m grateful for my tribe who have helped me find my way through this devastating void.

The 11th was Bailey’s first birthday in heaven, and today is the first anniversary of his passing. Both days he has been by my side.

You can’t tell me that our loved ones don’t live on by our sides once they pass. Friday Bailey sent me tons of signs (butterflies, a cardinal, another Bichon with a red leash), while today I headed to the beach, just as I was about to head back home from the wet, grey landscape, a rainbow sunset caught my eye. I knew Bailey sent me that, too, since the beach was always our thing.

There will never be a day where I don’t miss my Bailey blueberry bear, but today, I miss him a little bit more.

Mama loves you forever. Thank you for giving me the best moments of my life 🐾 ♥️

In loving memory of Bailey James, 4/11/09-4/15/24

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