Two of the biggest traps of spiritual practice are overfocus and underfocus on healing and growth.
With underfocus, we tend to avoid our unprocessed traumas and conditioning and instead disengage from “earthly matters” It is a form of dissociative behavior that other people pick up quickly as “spiritually fake”. Instead, engage with your body and sensations, do inner work and maybe also outer work: political activism, humanitarian work to eleviate suffering for yourself and the world.