I've recently been struggling more with selective mutism than usual. If I talk at all I keep mumbling and whispering because that's what feels most comfortable for me when it comes to conversation volume. my energy level is too depleted to mask and talk louder. I have a boulder on my chest keeping me from speaking my mind. it's so hard not being able to speak when it's important. my partner struggles with #AuditoryProcessingDisorder so it's kinda hard to communicate. having to repeat myself is stressing me out, him not getting what I say is stressing him out.
not sure how to handle this situation, I'm just so fucking tired and there is so much on the to do list I get anxious just thinking about it. I'd be most comfy not talking at all right now...
#selectivemutism #actuallyautistic