> Emperor Wu attributed the defeat to #LiLing, with all government officials subsequently condemning him for it. Sima was the only person to defend Li Ling..whom he respected. #EmperorWu interpreted Sima's defence of Li as an attack on his brother-in-law, #LiGuangli, who had also fought against the #Xiongnu without much success, and sentenced Sima to death. At that time, execution could be commuted either by money or castration. Since Sima did not have enough money to atone his "crime"..
> he endured three years. He described his pain thus: "When you see the jailer you abjectly touch the ground with your forehead. At the mere sight of his underlings you are seized with terror ... Such ignominy can never be wiped away." Sima called his castration "the worst of all punishments". In 96 BC, on his release from prison, Sima chose to live on as a palace eunuch to complete his histories, rather than commit suicide..
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sima_Qian
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Sima Qian - Wikipedia

> the reason I have.. continued to live, dwelling in vileness and disgrace.. is that I grieve that I have things in my heart which I have not been able to express fully, and I am shamed to think that after I am gone my writings will not be known to posterity.. numerous.. are the men of ancient times who were rich and noble and whose names have yet vanished.. . It is only those who were masterful and sure, the truly extraordinary.. who are still remembered.