I’ve posted a bunch of #TransTimelineThursday posts and I’m very conscious about how reductive they are by nature — not only do they (necessarily) only show physical changes, they also gloss over the effort and often significant pain involved, mental and physical.

I had my 6th session for laser hair removal yesterday and soon will move to electrolysis, since so many hairs now lack sufficient pigment. Along with this hurting a lot (and it does, even with lidocaine), I also end up splotchy, puffy, and tender, like a recent sunburn. Even so, I often cry with relief after.

Here’s me in November 2022, 1 month before starting HRT and 7 months before starting hair removal, and me yesterday. These transitions are hard-fought, and I value every photo I see posted. No matter how small you might think the visible change is, I know what is happening to get there. My love to you all. 

Bonus picture of me today, having mostly recovered but still unable to shave yet
@caroline Whew! You have recovered nicely, Ms. Cuteness!! 😍
@caroline Yeah... We see the cuties, we don't usually see the pain and suffering it took to get there.
@theartlav @caroline trying to find the right way to say it and not finding it. It's nice to see, because the later photos are a wonderful showcase for trans joy which is always good to spread and thank you for touching on how it's a journey of many steps to reach such a place 🫂🏳️‍⚧️🫂
@theartlav @Nikkileah yeah it was weighing on me a lot, I don’t want to contribute to this idea it’s actually a magic button (much as we might wish it). My friends doing electrolysis aren’t just enduring the painful session itself, but also the dysphoric anguish for days before not being able to shave so hairs can reach sufficient length. Friends who’ve had top surgery (both kinds!) couldn’t lift their small children for months. Friends having had facial surgery may have lasting nerve damage. These are rarely easy or casual processes. And STILL we do these, and persevere, and show how worth it the anguish was. But I do want to not forget how we got here.
@caroline Thank you for sharing your journey. 💜

@caroline Ouch! 😬 My upper lip and cheek look similar after electrolysis today. I'm not sure if I ever looked that toasty after my fourth and final laser treatment last year.

Again, most cis people just have no idea about the crucible that trans femmes crawl into.

@caroline Thanks for sharing these. I start face laser in a few weeks, and I admit to some apprehension - but it's good to acknowledge both the effort and discomfort, as well as the steps and progress. Plus the absolutely gorgeous current state!
@i_am_natalie Exciting, congratulations! I cried a lot after my first treatment but it was entirely because of how glad I was to be starting. Bring a squeeze ball or something, and you’ll be fine, it’s really not too bad 
@caroline I wish I took photos to see the progress from when I first started laser after several sessions. It is a journey I'm currently on the electrolysis part myself
@Rtorres81 oh me too, the trans experience is clearly feeling like you’re taking more pictures now than ever before in your life, and realizing later it still wasn’t enough 😂
@caroline @Rtorres81 No better time to start than today, then. :)
I used to take weekly photos for a year before HRT, and only restarted 10-ish months in. Still regret it.

@caroline
That is such a wonderful glow-up! Definitely no small change between those photos.

I'm reaching the point of diminishing returns with my laser treatment already. I'm dreading electrolysis, but it's coming.

On the plus side, after two treatments (#3 is today), I barely need any concealer. Going white-gray has its perks!

@violet good luck today then! I kept thinking I was done in an area, and then it would HURT and my tech would say “great, a whole bunch were just vaporized” 😳

And yeah, I bought some concealer a while ago and it only makes things look worse now, haha

@violet

I was quite surprised to find that personally I find electrolysis less painful than laser

@caroline

@forestpines here’s hoping! I’ve got a lot of white on this face too 👵🏻

@violet

@caroline

Good luck! Same same. I think the thing is: although the pain is continuous, it's a single continuous pinprick, not something that hits a whole little patch at once

@violet