Watching #ShinyHappyPeople 4 part #Dugger doc - this hit hard:

"Within this community, critical thinking is turned on yourself. So you end up cannibalizing your self-confidence with overanalyzing - "am i doing it right?" - rather than criticizing the system as a whole. If you are so preoccupied with self-examination, you're not going to have enough energy to challenge the system itself." --Eve Ettinger

#deconstruction #exchristian #excoc #quiverfull #religioustrauma

My former church wasn't this exactly (we didn't have a militia...), but its themes of authority, gender roles, and purity culture are familiar enough that it made all my muscles tense and I had to remember to breathe and consciously relax.