It’s been a weird day.

I’m the CFO for my #polyfam and without getting too deep into it, I’ll share that my repeated statement is, “There’s plenty of money, but if we’d stick to a budget we could…”

And when I paid the bills today, I got really grumpy.

But I kept my shit together, put all the numbers into a spreadsheet, generated graphs, and sent them to our family chat.

And then I went on with my day.

I love my #SSRI

Like, life is still difficult at times, and I 100% self diagnose as #AuDHD ever since I learned what it feels like as an adult, which puts my normally easy mode life into… well… easy mode but with fewer QOL mods.

But even my worst days on #Cymbalta have been on par with an average day before.

Let me tell you, it was really freaking weird when I met my wife and witching a week she asked if my x-wife and I had ever been tested for ADHD.

I paused. Blinked.

And realized that I had been too close to a problem for years.

I could identify signs of autism and ADHD and other conditions in a 13 year old within minutes of meeting them, but I couldn’t see it in myself or those close to me because… well… it’s just how we were.