good morning friends!

#AFLife

I didn't end up doing anything else on my list yesterday ... the maintenance person shows up right as I was about to take out some recycling, and then I just lost momentum 🤷🏻

so I mostly played Blanc until I had to work, and then work was stressful, and then my girlfriend came over with candy and I didn't really work the rest of the shift, and then we ordered food and played a little Blanc until she went home

so it was definitely a nice night overall

#AFLife

so, today's plans include yesterday's

- breakfast
- take out recycling
- post pictures for fiberuary​
- put away clean dishes
- #HebrewStudy?
- make living room livable again

okay, here's my entry for #fiberuary: it's still a #WIP, and technically I think I'm late for #texture week, but I'm teaching myself multiple #weaving techniques/textures. so far I have: rya knots, plain weave, soumak (my favorite!!!), satin weave, and plain weave with a bit of ribbon. the yarn's still my handspun Hellboy

okay, fox, time to get off the couch and go into the kitchen and make some food! you can do it!

#AFLife

today's plans:
✅ breakfast
- take out recycling
✅ post pictures for fiberuary​
✅ put away clean dishes
- #HebrewStudy?
- make living room livable again

I have therapy soon, then a couple hours to myself before work. also I'm thinking of changing the #AFLife hashtag? I modeled it off of @sheepchase's #sclife, but I'd like it if there was a more widely used hashtag like "Life Posts" or "A Day In The Life" or something? anyway, time to get ready for therapy!

there's this questionnaire I have to do every week before therapy, and I hate it and I've hated it for a while, but I'm starting to get stress responses now just looking at it ...

#mentalHealth #OQ

therapy was good! and I've taken out a fair amount of my recycling; but then I stopped to break down boxes and got sidetracked on the internet, so ...

I finished taking out the recycling and now it's time for work!

I don't think I mentioned this earlier, but I got my work schedule changed so now I only work until 11pm on weeknights (instead of midnight). that schedule started this week, and it's been nice

I went from 20 hrs/wk to 24 hrs when I went from answering all the calls to just doing paging, and it's been too much 🙃 #disability

also I've decided on #LifeStuff going forward

@agenderfox Oh dear that’s not good but I understand. I had to fill in a depression one each time (before they diagnosed me with CPTSD) and because I was suicidal the questions on suicide would just trigger me to be more suicidal!

@sheepchase oh geez, that's awful! fortunately it's not like that for me, but it's like, the responses are never, rarely, sometimes, frequently and always, and the statements are things like "I have frequent arguments" or "I'm a happy person"

the first one is just nonsense, and the second seems more like a "yes/no/it's complicated" situation. also I have to answer questions about drug use every week

I don't really know how to describe why it sucks so much for me ...

#MentalHealth

@agenderfox LOL I think I understand because I hate those kinds of questions that require a fixed answer when really our experience isn’t fixed like that!

I guess they mean like narcotics? Not legal drugs? Mine doesn’t have that (because there’s like nothing legal here at all and you wouldn’t admit to it)

@sheepchase it's like drugs/alcohol, and idk, I just wish they had a separate quiz for people who don't have an issue with substance abuse? maybe that's a silly thing to complain about, and like anyone could develop an issue with substance abuse, but idk ... the least they could do is group those questions together ...
@agenderfox Yep, makes sense. Probably just easier for them to use one form 😑
@agenderfox @sheepchase I’m all for a general life hashtag, I might even use it, but I don’t have any suggestions for what it should be. Yay for livable living rooms. I need to make my bedroom livable again and don’t worry I won’t post before photos…

@littlemiao lol, nothing wrong with before photos! I mean, I worry about people judging me. a lot, actually. sometime I'm going to post about all the things I'm worried I'll be judged about, all at once, so people can like block me for being lazy and disgusting or whatever all at once and I can stop working about it 🤣

but anyway, I'm here for posts about attempting to make your living space livable. I vote for #UnfuckYourHabitat as the hashtag for those posts

@agenderfox I got so much out of Unfuck your habitat. If only my house reflected that 😂. And sometimes I wish I could block myself for being lazy and disgusting but then my brother reminds me that I would never judge anyone else that way so I shouldn’t do it to myself. It’s not easy! I should get back to setting 5 min timers, that technique actually worked for me.
@littlemiao YAY I'm so glad you got my reference! I actually bought the Unfuck Your Habitat workbook recently, but I haven't used it yet ...
@agenderfox @littlemiao I loved that book and wanted my partner to read it but unfortunately it just caused stress lol.
@sheepchase @littlemiao oh no, that's the opposite of what we want!
@agenderfox @littlemiao Yeah, partner gets SO stressed with tidying or cleaning. Unfortunately if I move any of their stuff that also gets them really stressed… so I can only unfuck my own stuff lol
@agenderfox I didn’t know there is a workbook. I’ll have to check it out! My biggest problem is often just being too overwhelmed to start, which of course compounds the problem 😬
@littlemiao YEPPPPPPP ... I'm like constantly overwhelmed by how cluttered my place is, which I deal with by playing video games!
@littlemiao also the workbook is called Cleaning Sucks
@agenderfox Yeah I’m wondering if my hashtag serves any purpose now. I did it so that people could mute my posts if they were sick of them, but now I’m following more people and have more people following me… maybe it’s not relevant anymore!

@sheepchase I still like the idea of marking them off as like "just little day to day stuff" ...

I saw a hashtag a few weeks ago that served this purpose, but then I forgot it almost immediately, and I haven't had any success finding it again, alas

@agenderfox Yeah it really helps me get through the day, bizarrely.

I saw some people suggested using the #today hashtag but I don’t think that’s for this kind of thing…