The Right Angle
By Elise Pallagi
Self pub Zine 2016

I love your face
Just not mine 
It's hard for me to do that at this time
Every time I take a selfie 
I struggle to find that perfect angle
To hide those features that I hate

Long pointed square jaw and chin
No softness to be found
Just a face carved out with a chisel 
The constant reminder that I was born the wrong way
Hair growing where I don't want to see it compounding the reminder

Maybe not the wrong body 
That narrative never fit me 
But what is the use of a face that doesn't fit me?
You say I look good but it doesn't stop the voices in my mind
It doesn't stop the stranger from calling me something I'm not

I wish I could change it 
I wish I could be seen for what I am inside
I wish the cure for what I have wasn't so expensive
Medicare doesn't cover everything
And until I can obtain it…

Guess I'll keep trying to find the right angle…

#selfie #dysphoria #facialfeminization #girlslikeus #transgender