I had problems throughout school where I thought I had a bunch of friends but I was just really bad at telling friends from acquaintances and I actually didn't really have friends.

I'm really worried that I'm in that position again. A lot of people only message me when they want something from me, and I don't get invited to do things with anyone. And people who do things and invite people I thought were friends but not me don't respond when *I* try to set something up and invite them.

Friends keep telling me I need to get a therapist but I have no idea how to find one that's any good - my past experiences with therapy have been unhelpful
@NovaSquirrel Are you perhaps neuro divergent? I have been told I have the same problem that is more rare in neurotypicals, thinking that I'm closer friends with people than they think I am.
@JordiGH Yes I've been diagnosed with autism and ADHD and what really brought this to my attention years ago was reading the paperwork for the diagnosis
@NovaSquirrel a lot of your friends are also neurodivergent and may not really talk unless talked to and may be wondering exactly all of this to themselves too. They haven't reached out to you for the same reason you haven't reached out to them. I wouldn't be too hard on yourself.