Muninn 🍃20 min zazen today, evidently after I skipped for like 4 days?? Wow, didn't seem that long. Super busy monkey mind at first, then fleeting moments of one-pointed mind, then sleepiness. So it goes. But I'm definitely used to the rhythm of this now and can feel the changes as they happen instead of noticing them later. #DailyMeds #meditation
Increased my zazen period to 25 minutes today. I do a 90 second posture adjustment bell ("wiggle bell") in the middle. I was plagued by posture adjustments during the first half - a teacher once suggested I wait 3 breaths before any change, and I moved thoughtlessly many times today - but I noticed that my obsession with having my body and gaze centered is relaxing. Well, more so the body than the gaze. #DailyMeds
Back to 20 min zazen today, since I was feeling time pressure and also sleepiness. I could've stood 25 minutes thought. Gonna keep pushing that time, but no huge need to be aggressive about it I guess. #DailyMeds
25 min zazen today after two days off (and I was in a terrible mood most of those two days 🤔)... real cloudy feeling sit, lots of drifting distractions in the first half and then sleepy. I need to continue to work on being mindful when I find the need to shift around. I do feel better tho after sitting! #DailyMeds
Very challenging 25 min sit today. Lesson learned: don't read loomio directly before meditating. It was an opportunity to practice (poorly and with great effort) letting go and trying to be in the present. #DailyMeds