Just a reminder: Trump did NOT win the Nobel Peace Prize.
María Corina Machado won the award and presented Trump with her medal after being pressured (bullied) to do so.
Ironically, Trump’s childish whining and pressure campaign is a stark reminder of why he was unworthy of the Nobel from the start.
#machado #Venezuela #MAGA #trump #nobel #republicans #loser #news #unworthy
had a little chat thru the back screen door with him, asked if he'd like a glass of cold water. we reviewed the work done so far, what else is left, what he'll tackle next today, what he'll have to leave til next time coz soon he'll be running into the appointment time of his next job. on that, he mentioned
he seems a thoroughly pleasant & courteous bloke, has always been so with me in each of our prior discourses [ie, the previous jobs he's done for me], yet, such is my terrible skullgoo, that i fixed then fixated on his not saying
similar thing happens with my mowing bloke, who i've used for very many years & who has always been great with me [& indeed, we often indulge in much silly banter]. typically when he mentions other clients, jobs, to me, he similarly mentions "a lady" or "a woman", but not "another lady" or "another woman".
it all accumulates in me, & just amply reinforces my sense of failure, thus futility.
#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
handypeep running 50 minutes, & one month, late. already nervous-stewing in my throat-covering poloneck jumper & tinted facial spakfilla, now i have extra time for the defective skullgoo to run amok with my "equanimity" [sic].
sigh. wouldn't be dead for quids...
#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
yet more nightmares of betrayal, failure, imposture
yet more daylight of utter despair
uh, must be a day ending in y
#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
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in the 90s, i had to go to merka twice, many weeks at a time, for training at some of my small merkan multinational employer's sites
in the early to mid 00s i underwent my full #transition, over a three year period, whilst working for the ginormous merkan multinational that had in the meanwhile bought my hitherto employer. they were empathic & supportive of me throughout, for which i remained ever grateful, notwithstanding their frequently stupid merkan corporate culture & practices
over recent years i have often played a mind-game with myself, as i observe merka's descent into failed state status, a horrific fascist dystopia of hatred, violence, & idiocy, & ask myself "what would you have done, Droppie, if the timing had been different, such that you had been required to travel to that evil hellhole as it is now, in your post-transition sadly-unpassing present state?" ofc i am certain beyond a shadow of doubt i would have refused outright, so i wonder what that would have done to my employment, my career, my... well, lots of stuff.
#USPol #TuckFrump #FuckRWNJs #magamorons #FuckChristoFascists #FuckAllReligion #OrangeOaf #HeyFascistCatch
#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
there's a state of being that some term #suicidality . wikipedia says
Suicidal ideation, or suicidal thoughts, is the thought process of having ideas or ruminations about the possibility of dying by #suicide. It is not a diagnosis but is a symptom of some mental disorders, use of certain psychoactive drugs, and can also occur in response to adverse life circumstances without the presence of a mental disorder. On suicide risk scales, the range of suicidal ideation varies from fleeting thoughts to detailed planningi know this personally, but tbh there was only one time i might have actually proceeded, ~15 years ago.
Reuters White House Correspondent Jeff Mason posted a photo to X of a wall in the White House where former first lady Hillary Clinton's portrait once hung. The wall features paintings of first ladies in chronological succession, with Laura Bush and Barbara Bush, and between them would commonly be Cl...
Marie du jour, 10 May: St. Teresa of Avila
His Majesty well knows that I can count only upon His Mercy, and, as I cannot help having been what I have, there is nothing for me to do but approach God and trust in the merits of His Son, and of the Virgin, His Mother, whose habit both you and I unworthily wear.
Praise Him, my daughters, for you are really the daughters of Our Lady, and when you have as good a Mother as that, there is no reason for you to be scandalized at my unworthiness.
Imitate Our Lady and consider how great she must be and what a good thing it is that we have her for our Patroness; even my sins and my being what I am have not been sufficient to bring any kind of tarnish upon this sacred Order.
Saint Teresa of Avila
Interior Castle, III, chap. 1
Our Lady of Mount Carmel with Saint Teresa and Saint John of the CrossTeresa of Avila, St. 1963, The Complete Works of St. Teresa of Jesus, Vol. III, translated from the Spanish by Peers, E, Sheed and Ward, New York.
⬦ Reflection Question ⬦
How can I live more worthily as a child of Our Lady by imitating her virtues each day?
⬦ Join the conversation in the comments.
#belonging #BlessedVirginMary #CarmeliteHabit #imitation #mercy #nuns #StTeresaOfAvila #unworthy
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