Today was something really special. I mean, it's the middle of the afternoon, but still. I spent the night at Nitsa's place, and today, one of our best friends who also happens to be our little brother as he chose us to be his big sisters, came by for his first testosterone injection. With him was a friend of his and his girlfriend. We were four trans girls all surrounding this one trans boy celebrating his first testosterone injection and it was something really special, unique and I'm so happy to have been able to be part of it.

Before the injection, he had moments of doubt, wondering if he was making the right choice. And it's special, because there is nothing more trans than this, and at the same time, well, you don't want to dismiss that. It's important to let the person explore that doubt and figure it out for themselves. He made his choice and we were all surrounding him and giving him lots of love when Nitsa did the injection on him.

He is frightened by needles, so this was hard for him. Once the process was done, he asked us in disbelief if it was done, if he actually had testosterone within him for real now. When he heard that yes, he did, that it was real, his face changed. That boy always had a wonderful smile but this was something else. His face, it glistened, it lit up the room. Like a comet soaring through the nightsky, so radiant that it seemingly sets the sky on day fire.

On a similar note, I've seen him with his girlfriend, the way they kiss each other, the way he seeks her for comfort and... Some things are just too perfect to even describe.

I'll forever be grateful to have been able to witness all of this.

On a more personal note, now:

Later, sitting on the couch, still wearing around him the trans flag I had wrapped him in when I helped him come out more than a year ago. Still high from his joy, he then said a loud to the girls surrounding him, while I was autistically sitting on the floor in front of them: "Hey, you know that it's because of Omega that I'm still alive?"

Everyone in the room proceeded to thank me. Nitsa then told them that just yesterday night, I was crying in her bed, thinking that I never did enough, that I was not helping anyone, that I was worthless. It's hard for me to process, it's all so fleeting and soon enough, my anxieties will once again have the upper hand on my self-esteem. But this was real. Nothing's more real than this. It happened, it came out of nowhere else than his deepest sincerity, his rawest emotions. People bare witnessed.

You know... life is difficult, painful, sometimes it's awful. But damn, it does have its moments. Things like today makes all of the things that came before worth it.

#trans #transjoy #hrt #testosterone #transman #transboy #transmasc #transmasculine

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i watched the 1978 tv series as a child because my mum watched it when she was a child and she adored the series and the books. i know i’ve also read at least some of the books but most of my memories come from the tv series

i found these quotes just by ctrl+f-ing 5 of the books for words like “boy” and “master george” (and “henry”). i’m sure there’s a lot more and more interesting stuff to be found when actually reading the books. but there’s also a lot of bad stuff (that i don’t remember at all, so i (and also my mum) must have taken that as normal as a child), in general and in disrespecting and making fun of george for his transness, even from the other 3 children who at least generally accept some things like calling him george

i always liked julian the least because he was a strong and commanding boy who didn’t view george and girls as an equal, but i did like that he would deal with more dangerous things for the others and protect them

dick always felt like a boring default boy with no personality to me, at least in the tv series, i don’t remember him from the books. but also he was less manly and daring than julian, so i thought i had to pick him to relate to

i’ve always liked anne the most because she was careful, soft and didn’t want to do dangerous things, just like me. and she was usually wearing the prettiest clothes. but of course she was a girl and i was not and could obviously never be one, so relating to her was off-limits for me

and then there’s of course george. george being a “girl who would rather have been born a boy”, and that at least to some degree being accepted by the people around him, was very fascinating. but i also kind of agreed with anne – how could a girl want to be a boy instead when being a girl is obviously the better choice?

and george is definitely trans. yes, the word “transgender” was not used to describe him and didn’t exist yet, but other words existed, and the human experience it describes has always existed. george is described exactly as a trans boy would be described, it’s just not named as such. if there were a character who was described like “brian was not attracted to people of The Other Gender but to people of the same gender. he loved his fellow man john and wanted to marry him to live gaily ever after”, then he would obviously be gay because that’s what was described, even if the word wasn’t used. so here’s some proof that master george is an unintentional but definite trans icon from 84 years ago who has surely been responsible for putting cracks in countless eggs:

”Do you call her ‘George’?” asked Anne, in surprise. “I thought her name was Georgina.” ”So it is,” said her aunt. “But George hates being a girl, and we have to call her George, as if she was a boy. The naughty girl won’t answer if we call her Georgina.”

”I’m George,” said the girl. “I shall only answer if you call me George. I hate being a girl. I won’t be.“

“You look like a boy.” ”Do I really?” said George, the frown leaving her face for a moment.

“Bad luck, old girl-I mean, old boy!” George managed to smile.

She had had her hair cut even shorter than usual, and it really was difficult to know whether she was a boy or a girl.

The local people all knew how badly she wanted to be a boy, and they knew, too, how plucky and straightforward she was, so they laughed to one another and said: “Well, they reckoned she behaved like a boy, and if she wanted to be called “Master George” instead of “Miss Georgina”, she deserved it!”

“I’m Master George, not Miss Georgina,” said George, in a cold voice.

“Mr. Roland, sir,” he began. “Could you call my cousin by the name she likes - George - she simply hates Georgina.”

‘Why, if it isn’t Master George!’ said the old fellow with a grin. George grinned too. She loved being called Master instead of Miss.

“Oh - Henry!” said Anne, with a laugh. “I should have thought you’d find a lot in common with another girl like yourself, who would rather be a boy, and tries to act like one!”

“After all, you and she are very alike, George. You both think you ought to have been boys”

“Yes, what was it now, Henry,” said Dick. “Nice chap. I’m going to like him.” George stared as if she couldn’t believe her ears. “Henry! Did she meet you?” “No - not she - he”, corrected Julian.

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