Hai! TikTok n Insta r dumb n censor-y, so I’m here to post my art, talk abt healing from OEA, cultivate non-duality, n find friends n fans who share my values of authenticity, understanding n compassion, empowerment, sexuality, integration of complexity, n growth n transformation! 💖🥰😘
#introductions #chaeosmajik #artist #multidisciplinaryartist #oea #wemustbecomefearlessnloving #oeaexistssowhatdowedoabtit #ramcoa #oea #ramcoaisreal #didsystem #dissociativeidentitydisorder
Extremely brief history over. Back to present.
With present life stuff and the pain of being an #OEAsurvivor (aka #ramcoa ), among much else. Plus, you know, the much bigger problem of climate change and all that other horrible stuff we're also aware (and not aware) of, I often don't get to play #VideoGames much despite enjoying them much over the years. My #3DS is most accessible when I can. And like many, there's less and less time for them. It has helped me a lot in my journey so far,...
One of the main takeaways I've had over the past few months is this: any programming you may be dealing with, no matter what that may entail, has a part(s), or alters, at the heart of them. They are just like any other part in your system in that regard.
It may take time, but raising awareness, showing love & compassion to programmed parts can make such a massive difference & break down the programming, & ultimately abusers' influence.
No matter how hard things might get, one thing is clear. My abusers don't get to have access to any parts of me anymore. My parts deserve to actually come home from all the hell we still continue to go through. We made it this far. We're not stopping now.
#trauma #ramcoa #DID #OSDD #CPTSD #CSAsurvivor #healing #selfCare
So much stuff has been falling into place ever since us external parts have learned we're OA survivors. So much stuff makes sense. Today, all the confusion, conflicting feelings, & even pain, is understood to have been a part of programming I've gone through. I half-joked with my therapist, "Gee, why is self-care so difficult? 🤔 What a mystery." Now we understand this more than either of us ever have before.
The stuff I've been processing so far is some of the toughest I've ever dealt with. It's a testament to how far we've come, and how much work we've done previously. But wow, is it bananas. I'd like to hear from other #RAMCOA #survivors on what it's like to cope and deal with the consequences some day. But in the meantime, my focus is largely on #boringSelfCare.
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Chaeosmajik!!!
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