I am not free from my worries about my future. I am not trying hard enough, I know it. I always find excuses like "my mental illness is getting in the way". In general, I can't find any other excuses. I need to lock in. But I don't feel like my future will be good. I'm putting all my cards on Ausbildung in the hope that it will correct the mistakes of my parents' past and my teenage self. But I'm not sure about that. Who wants to take in a self-taught enthusiast who still doesn't know anything?

#i'm_a_singlet #systematic_deutsch #germany #deutschland #ausbildung #rambling #i'm-so-tired-and-scared

Some photos from yesterday walk. That walk speaks to me soul #nature #naturephotography #walking #walk #rambling

Recharging my mental battery

Today is what I needed. I went to go see my parents. I love going to see them as they're literally the best. They raised me to be who I am and not care about what people think about me. They set a blueprint that was hard growing up with sometimes but the mockery at school was only a few years.

https://carlvsreality.com/2026/05/28/recharging-my-mental-battery/

excited for tomorrow

I'm very excited about tomorrow as I get to visit my parents. I don't get to see them as much as I would like because I don't drive and I need to get a bus to see them. The bus is like an hour and forty which is a big chunk of time , meaning that I can't go see them before or after work. I love catching up with them as we chat and all that. I'm also excited because I get to visit my other happy place. A walk I like to do whenever I get the chance. I just love it. I take my binoculars, my […]

https://carlvsreality.com/2026/05/27/excited-for-tomorrow/

Not a moth post.
A common toad post.
On a path in the beautiful Paxton House grounds, just outside Berwick-upon-Tweed.
#toad #amphibian #animal #nature #wildlife #countryside #walking #rambling #berwickupontweed #alttext

Today’s amble in full. Did we mention is was wet? Weather app mislead us terribly. #Hiking #Ambling #Rambling

Tops or Bottoms? How do you regulate your temperature? https://mike.helmers.me/blog/tops-or-bottoms/ #Comfort #Clothing #Rambling #100DaysToOffload

Tops or Bottoms? How do you regulate your temperature? https://mike.helmers.me/blog/tops-or-bottoms/ #Comfort #Clothing #Rambling #100DaysToOffload

Good evening Fediversistas! Been ambling. Never a bad thing to do, even when it was rather wetter and colder than the weather app may have led us to believe; we may have gone one season off in our coat option. No matter, rain or shine, we know where our happy place is, and we went there. #Hiking #Rambling #Ambling