Wild how I got broken up with (my gf in LA) and I am in Tokyo to do a DJ gig. At least friends from Kansai will be there too so I don't feel like shit and loneliness. My nesting partner is having a blast with his friends this weekend and I have a little fomo but hoping this event tonight goes well. I also decided to stop drinking for the month so no substances to blur my feelings. #polyamfam

I had a talk with my nesting partner about my feelings on some things and realized that he is way more cool about making this work than I think. My anxious attachment needs to stop. Crazy how I have secure attachment with my other partners but with him I'm anxious. #polyamfam

Had a great therapy session this morning. Next week we gonna find a way to maintain this good feeling I'm having when it comes to my partners. A big positive shift happened last week and I see how things can evolve but I know my brain..... It tends to go up and down with stuff like this a lot. I just want my emotions to be regulated more. Maybe these meds will help that too. #adhd #polyamfam

So far I realized this is the only place I post about my polyam relationships even in a vague way. I don't anywhere else because I don't actually feel comfortable with certain ppl I know reading my shit. #polyamfam

Never thought I'd add another partner. 3 was my max but now it's gonna be 4 (2 in Japan 2 in the US). I think it'll work out. #polyamfam

Love it when I get one of my partners a gift and they wear/use it right away....and then continuously wear/use it. Got a pair of pokemon undies I was scared wouldn't fit my nesting partner and it did. He wore it after our 1 year anniversary day at USJ. 💗💗 #polyamfam

I am a romantic clearly but I've toned it down for years cuz anyone I get with thinks it's too cheesy. Well I'm not gonna stop being cheesy anymore. My current partners can say "that's so gaaay" (we are all in the alphabet mafia) all they want but I know they like when I give them gifts and show my affection. No longer feeling bad about it. #polyamfam