Haunting my dreams again

And he is in my dreams again

Dream after dream after dream…

And he just keeps appearing in them all

Haunting my dreams yet again

Truthfully I rather have him

In my dreams

So vividly almost like its real

Than having yet another nightmare

Being right there in his arms again

Tracing outlines of tattoos on his arms

Being so in love

And being so loved by him

And I can’t let go of that feeling

That I get while

Being right there in his arms in these dreams

To have little bit of secret heaven

That no one knows about

It’s all mine

Even if it’s just in a dream

And won’t last long

Still for a little moment

I’m right in those arms

And being so loved

To have that moment is priceless

Even when it’s just a dream

And not real

I’m able to recall that feeling

It’s the reason why I don’t mind him haunting my dreams

So I welcome that ghost back to haunt my dreams 

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 Is there cure?

But I still don’t want to believe

This is it

That there is no cure

Nothing that can be done

And that world just lost another loving heart

That is gone now

That there is no way

To get it back

There is already shortage of loving hearts

And love in the world

So to have this one loving heart

Turned into a bitter black heart

Is a crime

And so devastating

Losing yet another loving heart

Because cruel careless hands 

And lying lips

That didn’t care about the damage they caused

But I do care

And I don’t see something so beautiful

Turn and stay into this ugly bitter mess

Just because one person

Didn’t know how to love right a loving heart

Love it way it deserved

I don’t want to believe

I refused to believe

That nothing can’t be done

And there needs to be cure

Something that will get rid of

That never ending bitterness

There has to be

Way bring back that loving heart

From where it now is

I refused to give up on it

I will find away

I’m not giving up on that heart

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It’s understandable   

Well that was before

Now…

Now I’m no longer surprised

Seeing what had happened

It actually made sense

Why the loving heart had turned into a bitter black heart

Why the love had grown bitter

And the reasons

Didn’t even need false justification

 They actually were justified

Nothing false

The betrayal had been real

So was the pain

Which the bitterness had been born from

It was the whole mixture of betrayal, lies, false promises and empty words

That had poisoned the love

That has then poisoned the loving heart

Turning heart into what it now was

Because after all that hurt and pain

One can’t possibly stay

Way they were

Before it all happened

And the damage it had made and caused

So it’s understandable now

Where it all had started

How love like that could grew into such a poisonous bitterness

That would take over loving heart

Leaving it covered what looked like a black ink

And buried all the love and everything good

Just to leave devastating damage behind 

Nothing else

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Turned into bitter black heart

I never knew that love could grew something so bitter

Not even bittersweet

Just something that is purely bitter

So absolutely bitter it’s actually scary

In heart that had been so loving

How could that happen?

Love so sweet and innocent

Turned into that awful pitch black bitterness

Covering the heart

And filling it too

There was no room for love

In that heart anymore

It was like someone had taken full bottle of black ink

And just dumped it

All over the heart

Leaving this awful mess behind

 That can’t be wipe away

Or get clean ever again

Another innocent loving heart

Turned into bitter black heart

No longer believing in love

Or anything good

Covered in black ink

Filled with bitterness

That won’t let go

Its poisonous hold

Is there even way to free a heart from it?

Or is this it?

 Just this black endless bitterness

That had set inside once a loving heart

That took over

When love grew bitter

In the heart

That black poisonous bitterness

Just kept growing and growing

Until there were nothing left but that

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KEEP OUT 

Her heart had a sign

Placed outside of it

That spelled in big letters

Only two words

KEEP OUT!!!

It was written red letters

On black metal sign

She had put it up

Like a stop sign

Or no trespassing allowed

And she meant it

She had enough

With empty words and broken promises

So she put up sign

Telling everyone very simple message

Keep out of her heart

She wasn’t interested for same disappointments

And same lies

Just different face

But still same ending

She had sworn off even trying to look for love

It had not lead her anywhere actually good

Now she was sick and tired

Of these empty games

That only led into heartbreak

So she put the sign

To keep everyone out

And was ready to live rest of her life like that

But life had different plans for her

Because it did bring him into her life

Slowly those two words

No longer meant anything to her

And he was welcome into her heart

Because he showed with his actions

Over and over again why he deserved place in there

And how in his hands her heart was safe and loved

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Should have be…

I guess there was something wrong

With the shooting star

That we made that wish

To have this love last forever

Or was it fault of the stars

We thought our love story was written onto

Or was it just spelled wrong

Don’t know nothing but

One thing that you ain’t here

The forever we had wished had ended up

Become for now

But even that didn’t last long

Before it changed into something even worse called

No more

  As we’re no longer together

That our love is over

Now I don’t know how to go back

Being strangers

When I thought we were lovers

Made in heaven like you used to say

But you left me in hell

Trying to figure out

What now that there ain’t us no more

Why it had to end?

Were our stars faulty?

Or were we just hopeless romantics

 Who had bad timing?

I don’t know

This was supposed to be a love story

Where we live our happily ever after

Until death do us apart

But it only ended up short tragedy

 With bitter ending

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You keep pulling me back

You keep pulling me back

Every time I try to walk away

My heart is heavy

And full of blame

That belongs more to you

Than me

Because you know what you did

You know

We don’t talk anymore

 We’re stuck in this endless silence

Just pretending how this ain’t pain

Just love

I guess it’s bad love this point

Even though I know it is a lie call this a love

I still keep telling it to myself

Because I can’t face the truth

But the lie

Doesn’t make me feel any less alone

It makes me just feel worse

I know I should stop

But it is not easy

I know what I’m holding on ain’t real anymore

How holding on it just breaks me more

But every time I try to leave

You know what you need to say

To make me stay

And I’m too still weak

Just walk away

Still holding on what the beginning was

Even though I now know

It was all lies

Maybe next time I’m strong enough to leave

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Keep speaking

Boy keep speaking

We both know

There is no meaning behind your words

 They are just empty

Nothing but waste of time

Did you know I got bored with your empty words?

That meant nothing

I finally did see how empty and hollow you were inside

There was nothing why I should have stayed

And waste more time to you

Now your words are just empty air

That I don’t want to hear anymore

I don’t want listen your words

Ever again

Because now I know

Only thing you can do is to speak

And that’s it

No actions to follow

Just words that don’t come true

And now I know that

Just cheap lies

I was fool to believe

That there could have been something real between us

I didn’t get even a proper excuse

Let alone anything else

Just empty promise

Which you broke right away

And not even pathetic apology

Nor sorry excuses

After you broke what you promised

I didn’t want to hear those either

Because I don’t want any of your empty words

So keep speaking that’s only thing you can do

But never speak to me again

Waste someone else’s time

Do not waste my time

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Like moth to flame of fame

If fame is the torch

Then you’re the moth

Addicted to flame

Willing to do anything

To staying in the light of fame

No matter the cost

Just like thousand others before

And after you

Willing do anything to get next shot of fame

Have your daily dose

That you need feed

Your addiction of fame

That is so obvious now

Just to get the views

And have people talking

Anything that would give you attention

You so desperately yearn 

Try to fill the emptiness inside

But be careful what you sell

The parts you

That you will never get back

Once you sell them

It’s gone

And then you wonder why you feel empty inside

Piece by piece

You’re selling your body and soul

Leaving nothing but used empty shell behind

You took your clothes off just to become a cheap thrill

That will be discarded and thrown away

Like you never were something special

Because there is the next 10000 younger ones

Coming to take your spot

On your fading spotlight

That still looks same online and real life

Don’t need fill their photos with all social media beauty filters

Even those can’t hide the emptiness inside of you

Moth to the flame is always bittersweet tale of tragedy

Addiction to fame is nothing but road to damnation

 One way ticket to ruined life

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Still believing

She still believes in fate  

And destiny that is waiting for her

But most of all

She believes in love

Of course she believes in true love too

Especially she believes that love conquers all  

That is her North Star

She has never lost sight of

No matter what

Those beliefs had carried her through everything

That she had been through in life

And would carry in future too

She didn’t care about what people did think

About anything she believed

Even when they kept saying

She was so childish to still believe any of that

That she should grow up already

And stop believing in those foolish things

That in real world none of those mattered

True love was just a thing in past

No one falls in love anymore

How true love was dead

And so were old boring relationships

Those were now replaced with situationships and hookup culture

So she was called a fool and stupid among other names

For believing in that so called “childish stuff”

That she should be like everyone else

And join the hookup culture

Stop wasting her life

Live like rest of them

That the love she believed was dead

But no matter how many times people said that to her

She did not stop believing any of that

Because in her heart

She knew love was the greatest gift and power

So she still believes

Even when others no longer did

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