I'm having thoughts about long distance relationships, and how being apart again after time together might feel more difficult for me because of my audhd.
Like, there the rsd aspect, but on top of that there's also other parts:
- I get to experience lots of dopamine while Greg is around, just from being cuddled and touched, from having him with me in person, from the sex and play, from the good food he cooks me... and a bunch of other things
- I get to actually relax and unmask to a point where I feel like myself instead of trying to juggle people's expectations of me
- I am allowed to fuck up and be forgiven
...then I get back to my own life and all that goes away again. I feel sad, but also there's this terrible feeling of not coping with life that hovers until I get back to my normal routine and remember that I am used to this struggle.
It sucks.
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