#musing #mixtishoo #eLLeAni

i'm wickedly, but sweetly tormented about never having had a good orgasm, as far as I know in my life.  With women it simply stung and gave me a feeling of wasteful frustration.  i've never been able to penetrate a man though i wish i could.  I feel so much more satisfaction without masturbating, especially in denying orgasm.

#musing #ChronicIllness, not negative.

With starting to paint and continuing to reclaim my creative side… I decided to look back at my camera roll.

What did I notice? A distinct change after I got #LongCovid in 2022, then autoimmune disease in 2023. No landscape photos anymore. No big sky photos. No camping photos. No random day trip adventure photos of the big, west coast sky. It just stopped. Entirely.

I went back *10* years… and if I could, I would go back another 10 years and I know it would be the same. I love - actually I absolutely adore - landscape photography. It’s in my soul. Since I was little I’ve said, “Where the ocean meets the mountains” will always be home. Feels like ages ago when I could walk the forests and beaches.

Anyway, I added some images to a new references album on my phone… now, I’ll learn to paint them. I’ll remember them. I’ll breathe new life back into parts of me that have lost their joy.

Good morning friends. ☀️🌄

#MentalHealth #painting #art #reflection

Second Chance Sunday, where I spotlight one of my old blog posts! In this case, a reflection on immortality and in particular the endless beauty of human creativity. #musing #blog #immortality #tumblr #scs

https://kathrynthornwood.com/blog/immortality/

#wiHrsOl #BelmonTia #darkfantasies #diXdb #musing

Lit sea salt
Meditating
To be at peace
Feeling love below the ocean
Gentle tides bring
Upon the seashores
There you are

#ceNoWo #BiHole #musing

Peace Below

#ceNoWoe #musing

Make the most of that which we are given.