When I was first transitioning I would post a comparison selfie each year on my HRTversary. I've fallen out of that habit the past couple years, but maybe I'll start again.

On the left is me in 2021, pre-HRT, taken on the day of my first meeting with a doctor about transitioning. The picture on the right is me today, just before heading out for a walk about the neighborhood. No makeup in either picture.

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 Today is my five-year HRTversary!!  

And four years (and a day) since I came out to my friends and family on Facebook.

 🎉 

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2 years ago I started applying a special gel… And now here I am with a better self-image, loving who I am as a person, and just overall happier (also have switched to injections)! Also wearing woman clothing contributed here.  

While I won’t claim that it has completely solved my mental health issues; I’d also lying if I didn’t say that it HAS significantly helped, and I’m glad I took the leap of faith 2 years ago!

I’m still pretty early on my journey comparatively speaking - but I think I’ve got my general fashion style down and I love what E is doing to my shell (and becoming the girl I want)… Here’s to the following year of transitioning!  

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So Sept 17th is my Estroversary. I came out Pride Month 2017, didn't start Estrogen until 2020. I got gatekept out the first time. I was almost made homeless by my first attempt. Just could not actually scrape the money together for all the extraneous tests. It took me years to work up the amount of skills necessary and life/career development necessary.

Hands down the best decision I have ever made in my life was starting HRT. It's been 5 years now. 4 of them in Germany. I could talk about the changes from physical to even mental but I really feel that's been covered enough and at length.

I could talk about how early I knew. I could talk about the Judges, Doctors, Psychologists, Endocronologists, Lawyers, blood draws and court/Dr dates. But those are boring and hard to think about. Plus they were in two countries in two languages seperated by an ocean. It's not easy to explain those in a post with the cultural and language and legal differences.

I am me and I can finally see me and have people default respect that. So here are some pictures of me that are rather mixed together both pre-E and post. All of them I was already out as a trans woman.

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I saw several posts today about celebratory HRT moments, which reminded me that I forgot to post something for my 18 months on hormones in mid-August. I guess better late than ever!

The photos below were taken in 6 months' intervals, with the first one being from day 1. It's funny to me that looking at these pictures now, my favourite is the one taken 6 months in. 🤔 In any case, even with all the skepticism I usually have about how much I have changed, I have a hard time denying that something has changed. I don't see that I changed "radically", to use the word my best friend used, but I guess even I have to admit that I do look different.

Can't wait to see what I will look like in 18 months' time, with the changes that I am making in my hormone regimen...

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Today I'm one year on HRT 🎉

Honestly everything just feels normal now? Like this is how my life was supposed to be. Just need to remember to take a pill every morning and evening, and an injection every 3 months.

Looking back my life became a whole lot better though. I was struggling with a lot of things, was basically slightly-but-not-clinically depressed all the time, especially in the winter. That has basically vanished now.

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Yesterday I celebrated 1 year on HRT. I wanted to have written something here but I had a group of wonderful queer girls coming over for dinner and spent most of the day preparing that, so didn't have the time I wanted to reflect on it, write something about it and put together a transition timeline.

It feels remarkable to me, specially as I am ticking some checkboxes. I have just done one of the 2 surgeries I wanted to do from the get go, and the other one will come in a month and a half. But even more so than that, I am finally starting the changes in my face that friends and relatives had been mentioning to me for a while. I had a hard time spotting any significant changes in the 6 months pic, but now I can clearly see the difference, in the cheeks in particular. I even have a dimple when I smile now!

My body has changed immensely, and i don't mean just the boobs (but yay boobs!). I have a much thinner waist and a wee bit of an hourglass shape and my skin is gloriously smooth. For the first time in my life, I look in the mirror after a shower and I like what I see. Well, almost everything, but we are getting closer to dealing with that.

But, physical changes aside (as important as they are) it's everything else that has really made a difference. Yes, there were some negatives, starting with the divorce and moving out of the place I called home. But I have gained so much in self-confidence and self-acceptance, and that is priceless. I have found a place in the world that, probably for the first time ever, feels right. I am surrounded by the right people (queer women mostly, my absolute chosen fam) and I am taking and giving joy and support within this new community. Medical transition has been crucial, yes, but this, most likely, is the best aspect of my transition so far.

And I can't wait to see what year 2 will bring, in both senses. There's a big surgery coming up, of course, but I want to see what other changes will HRT bring (specially to see how big the boobs will grow 😁). I am starting an NGO with 2 other queer women to help the community with outreach, awareness raising and information spreading. And I met a wonderful new friend who might turn out to be something more than just a wonderful new friend… Year 2 holds so much promise, I can't wait to see what it has in store.

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My #HRTversary is on the 24th of December. It's been one year since I started #HRT 

Hey, turns out as of 24 minutes ago I'm one year on #HRT  

Maybe I write a longer post about it later, but now I'm eepy. #hrtversary

My first #hrtversary is coming up in less than two months.. what should I do to celebrate?! I normally don’t really do much to celebrate myself tbh but this is so huge for me, I want to actually acknowledge it :)
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