But I do think I'd like someone to take control and lead so I don't have to decide what comes next all the time, I don't have to set the pace and don't have to think about/guess as much how to make a partner feel good because they tell me how to touch and do stuff. Just respectful and loving interaction but giving up the lead and mental load.
Also no a bottom which is often the more passive role as I understand it.
Also in context of being inexperienced and very insecure.
Is there other terms I'm not aware of? Where to find stuff about that? it seems hard to google. #getfedihelp #fedihelp #kink