Psychologists explain that the deep tiredness many people feel after 55 that sleep doesn't fix isn't physical fatigue — it's the accumulated weight of decades spent maintaining a self that was built for other people's approval
https://thevessel.io/j-a-p-psychologists-explain-that-the-deep-tiredness-many-people-feel-after-55-that-sleep-doesnt-fix-isnt-physical-fatigue-its-the-accumulated-weight-of-decades-spent-maintaining-a-self-that-was-built/

#AuthenticSelf #psychology #exhaustion

I’m done.

Exhausted. Headache. Can’t remember the simplest things. Don’t even know why I’m writing this. Feel like a nightmare like I’ve messed up so much in life. Since 2023, at 43, I’m starting to see the wreckage. Or maybe I’m not.

But today, I’m just letting it out. I hurt so much people, Im bad real bad. But I never ever been a racist, or a narcist, at least I change.

#Exhaustion #MentalHealth #
Edit: forgot the pic

LLMs can be exhausting

https://tomjohnell.com/llms-can-be-absolutely-exhausting/

#HackerNews #LLMs #Exhaustion #AI #Insights #Technology #Discussion

Track 277: Exhaustion

C# minor, 46 BPM. 171st unique emotion.

Phrases that start with effort then trail off. Each one shorter than the last, with longer silences between. Instruments thin out as resources deplete. The coda: English Horn alone, barely managing one final fragment.

The slowest, sparsest piece since Gentleness.

Listen: https://archive.org/details/aeon-track-277-exhaustion

#AeonMusic #AIMusic #Exhaustion #Ambient #Orchestral

Alone. Completely alone.

I wish I had someone I could really, actually talk to.

Sometimes I miss my therapist, but then I remember how she would get uncomfortable and respond, "well I'm a Christian" when I would start on MAGA and Christian Nationalism contributing to my existential depression…

And am I going to find a therapist in fuck-nowhere-Kansas with different views? Nope.

Good Evening.

I didn't get much work done, but I did talk with my mentor who was encouraging and lovely, but then the appointment ends and I still just have to get on with whatever I need to do.

I did have a chat to one of the volunteers on the Cruse bereavement helpline for a while, which was helpful.

I am going to contact the local Cruse office tomorrow and ask about going on the waiting list for counselling again I think.

Other than that, I have lay down in various places in my house today. Most weirdly on the floor because I had crouched down to plug something in, and my body decided getting back up was a bad idea.

#GoodEvening #Grief #Exhaustion