Once again, a lot later in a day that felt just like has been afternoon for the most of its parts. Tension unrelieved. New neighbours across the street still busy moving in, and it's amazing to see how different a mood this small cold room can gain from more tasteful interoir design. A lantern on the balcony. A glowing cigarette, a glowing screen. Dim lights at different temperatures. And no conversations to catch up on: Stories of night and the words it conceals unsaid, unhead. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #half_awake_half_asleep

8pm and the day's all pillows and blankets and an attempt to make meaningful use of both. Music powered off. Window slightly opened, a cold moist evening prevailing, dripping with rain and odd old stories. Sometimes focus worn off is annoying. Sometimes it's a treat. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are.  #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #sleep_as_an_option

Slowdown and late hours. A glimpse of changing weather a perception of rain moving in. Unsure about both though. Music from below, 1970s and as cheesy as it could probably be. Torn between trying to counter that noise and letting vague memories arise with it. Saturday night without too much of a fever but there's still some light. Be safe everyone wherever you are.  #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #all_these_stories

Very much later again. Assemblies and disassemblies. Picking some of the pieces put together earlier the day and shelving them, individually and in no particular order. A door bell ringing across the street, it seems an evening to get together in a crowded kitchen if that's the best and only place the appartment has to offer: Open windows, slightly disturbing music, but the hum of ongoing conversations with people distracting each other and trying to let go of the week and could easily be the best to do tonight. Asides sleep of course. Be safe everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #where_we_do_not_sleep_yet

A lot later, in what seems deep dense night again. Warm water, cold water, goosebumps, a reasonably soft towel. Enforcing, exploring ones own physical outline. Feeling structures invisible to any senses before. Exhausted, even though slightly less tense. Not too far from the order of the earlier hours. But ready and willing to leave things as they are for now. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #slowdown_speedup #where_we_are_we_are

Maschinen vom Tag trennen Heimbürotür schließen Ruhe suchen keine richtige Ruhe finden und dann doch kurz tief abgleiten und plötzlich wieder am Fenster stehen und die Abendglocken den eigenen Puls übertönen hören und langsam gegen alles anatmen und das sanfte Blau vor dem Abend in sich aufsaugen. Dazu Pfefferminztee, während nebenan die Balkonmöbel abgewischt und geputzt werden. Ausklingender Winter. #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #stories_of_random_sleep

Festgefahren: Streitgespräch mit dem inneren Kritiker. Wahrnehmungsdifferenzen. Diverse Themenblöcke. Ein Schwall von Worten und die Dämme waren schon robuster.  #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #where_we_are_we_are

(Gedanken über Adrenalin und Endorphin, Komfortzonen und die Dinge in den Grenzbereichen. Springbrunnen, weißes Rauschen, Zigarettenrauch in den Höfen, Vogelstimmen, Straßenbahnklingeln, vermutlich parkt wieder ein unvorsichtiger Transporter an der falschen Stelle in der Kreuzung und für den Augenblick gibt es sehr viel mehr Stimuli, als die Sinne aufnehmen oder verarbeiten können. Immer noch schnell, und das Bremsen fällt immer noch schwer.) #outerworld #office_hours #concrete_city #evening_deviations

And another day slowing down. Different routines different flows different neighbourhoods different memories. And still hours race by. The late moments, joining threads of thought again, allowing some to make it into yet another story, while shivering in cold air near the open backdoor. Eventually, filing all these things for later and retreating into the embrace of rooms and blankets. Sleep well everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #the_village_and_the_hills #where_we_try_to_calm_down #evening_deviations

Evening yet once again. Tired and exhausted. Both of tensions and of the exercises to let them go. Hot shower, cold shower, feeling ones outer shell and how it separates worlds. Heavy breathing against the changing thermal sensations, towel, icy floor, mind flushed, calming down. Inner rooms. A phone conversation below. Heated, at least that one noticeable half. The rest of the late city somewhere out there but invisible. For now. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete_city #evening_deviations #where_we_are_we_are #half_awake_half_asleep