From the first week on T, I occasionally would find myself suddenly dropping to the floor because of overwhelming growing pains from my dick. So it was just me rolling back and forth, curled up for a minute or so repeating "It's gonna be worth it, It's soo worth it". It got less frequent pretty quickly, and eventually stopped happening completely.
It was totally worth it.
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#earlyTMemories #LiamsTJourney
#tDiary #testosteroneDiary

There's nothing quite like commiserating with your cis younger brother over impending (and beginning) hair loss.

There's also nothing quite like realizing that the men in one particular line of your family *don't* lose their hair, and that yours is much more like that line's than your brother's already thinning hair is.

lol

#earlyTMemories #tDiary #testosteroneDiary #hair

Okieday, this memory is technically pre-T, not a #earlyTMemories ..but I think it counts.

I intentionally was freshly shaven bald when I went in to see the doctor who I hoped would put me on testosterone (and who did, in fact start my T). I sat there, expectantly, as he went through a list of potential side effects. I was so ready to have him tell me that balding was one of them. He reached the point where he said that there would be a change in hair growth, looked at my shiny head, and said "like facial or possible chest hair". I was so disappointed to lose an opportunity to say "So?"

He was right about hair growth, but I'll talk about that in some other post lol

#tDiary #TestosteroneDiary #baldLife

I have let myself become unprepared to exist in spaces where self-promotion is necessary.

I have no idea what I have by way of photos to represent myself. I have no words for the projects I'm currently involved with, and I have nothing like an up to date CV or self-descriptive blurbs of any kind.

And naturally, I have 2 different projects I now need various levels of these things for.

And instead of being willing to go find/create these things.. my brain is just thinking of #earlyTMemories

#ADHD #Neurodivergent #AdhdLife

So, as part of my acrobatic practice I've experienced a lot of physical changes over the years. One of those that I and my acro partner have enjoyed joking about is every time that I "get a new ass". Because the butt will really significantly change shape as muscle development happens, or as fat is added or lost. I think I gained a "new ass" something like.. twice, maybe three times over the course of the 6-7 years I'd been training handstands pre-T. I have had no less than 3 distinct "new asses" in the less than 2 years I've been on T. It's been a *wild ride* folks!

#earlyTMemories #tDiary #testosteroneDiary #TransJoy #acrobatics #fitness #LiamsTJourney #LiamsFitnessLog

First #earlyTMemories post for y'all.

A nurse administered my first T shot, while teaching me how to do it for myself.

I was on a night-owl schedule at the time, so I scheduled that to happen as early in the morning as I could, so I stayed up to get to my appointment, got my shot, took notes on how to do it, and then drove home and went to bed.

1.) My body reacted almost *immediately* to the shot, I was flushed and felt hyperactive for a good while, it was difficult to get to sleep. Unsure whether that was my body reacting to *being stabbed* or to the testosterone itself.

2.) I've been told that in my sleep that day I said out loud "Am boy, soon will be *more* boy!"

#tDiary #testosteroneDiary #transJoy #LiamsTJourney

It's been pointed out that we T-takers, trans-men, transmascs, non-binary people who want testosterone for whatever reason, have not been bringing our experiences of it to the fedi the way those taking E do.

So I'm gonna start sharing some #earlyTMemories with the tags #tDiary and #testosteroneDiary (going to do some reviving of the #LiamsTJourney tag while I'm at it)

Hopefully these things will catch on eventually, so those looking to hear our stories can find 'em. It's so reassuring to hear the stories of others when you're looking into taking a big step like starting taking testosterone.

edit: credit to @erosdiscordia for the idea and the hashtags.

Hashtags I use a lot :D
I do try to cw things, but I'm adding this as well, Feel free to filter with these (will update as time goes on, if you notice trends, feel free to suggest tags! lol):

Personal tags (not saying you can't use 'em, just not ones I'm actively encouraging others to use):
#CircusInPlace - our videochat related announcements/comments
#LiamsFitnessLog -me geeking about fitness
#LiamsTJourney - trans adventures
#LiamSings -music shenanigans :D
#thisOldClownHouse - Getting the building where we're starting our new clown school up and running.

Tags I use that I hope others do too!

#Staberday - updates on #needlefelting shenanigans, specifically aimed at Saturdays.
#tDiary and #TestosteroneDiary - Posts specifically about taking testosterone, experiencing changes related to testosterone puberty.
#earlyTMemories - Posts that aren't about current/recent experiences, but fit under the #tDiary and #TestosteroneDiary tags, reflecting on whatever "early" means to you. (as of right now.. that's mostly year 1 on T for me)
#masculineJoy - I fully explain this here: https://socialgaff.whirling.top/hashtagMasculineJoy.html but the tl;dr is happy feelings within/from masculinity