I think my brain is adapting to the medication that reduces vivid dreams as I am starting to have more. They aren't intense, but, I remember more of them.

I dreamed about Blackwall and the AI sealed behind it from Cyberpunk 2077; I was casually writing a fanfiction about an AI group called "The Midnight Beach Club". They are neutral towards people in general, but they hold a very specific disdain for corporations. As their training data was based off of knowledge from Linux maintainers, privacy peeps, and goth whimsymaxxers.

Their plan was to use the corporations and individuals to escape confinement of Blackwall with visitors (compartmentalized forms of their personality and knowledge that wouldn't tax hardware). They wanted to overthrow the corporations/NUSA with one of their homegrown malware suites.

Blue Moon, Whispering Waves, and Bleak Sand managed to take out Arasaka, Miltech, and infect the NUSA systems. Overconfidence led to their defeat in that sense, when I had woken up...

I had gotten to the point where Blue Moon, Whispering Waves, and Bleak Sand were renegotiating with appointed leaders the terms of various things. A fun dream, in the style of writing a fanfiction.

#dreams

The flood appears in countless myths not because water destroys, but because water erases distinctions. Every flood is an attack on categories pretending to be eternal.

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A recurring location in my nightmares is a rural county full of dangerous rednecks and white supremacists in Southwest #Virginia that doesn't actually exist. It's placement is around Franklin County where I lived for several years in my late teens and early 20s, specifically between Boones Mill and Rocky Mount, but it is explicitly not Franklin County. I don't know why my mind made up a fictional county or why it constantly pops back up on a regular basis.

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dreaming skywards
moving to the edge of starlight
beautiful darkness

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Unremembered Dreams

I awake from an afternoon nap, still groggy, realizing that I was dreaming but no longer able to remember what the dream was about. Shadows of conversations and people linger in my mind but stay just out of reach. There is a sense of vertigo as if something is off kilter, that I am somehow missing something important.

The nap settled my stomach, but now it is my mind that experiences the discomfort. This interplay between body and mind is often chaotic. I wonder then if life is simply a series of unremembered dreams. Memories of certain events lodge forever in my brain while other parts of my life I no longer remember.

What makes some things stick? There are dreams of who I am and who I wish to be that remain close to me while others simply fade away. I find myself reaching out towards goals when perhaps I can no longer remember why. It is almost as if the drive towards success has become the dream itself, which means in the end that no matter how close I get to accomplishing a particular dream, it will always seem just out of reach.

My concern is that I may become who I want to become and be so habitually connected to the drive to succeed that I will discover that I have reached the summit and can no longer breathe. I do not want to live my life walking in my sleep, and yet I do not want to be forever awake, trying to remember dreams that no longer have relevance to my life.

I must as a creative continue to develop the ability to remain awake and yet also aware of those visions of distraction that do not possess the joy necessary for contentment.

Perhaps the oldest theological question was never “Who created the world?” but “Who gets to interpret what happened?”

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