I do not want to deal with this and look into this, there's no way to fix it. I hate coming to terms with symptoms i had always and refused to acknowledge until recently.

There's surely nothing wrong with me not remembering nost of my life. It's definitely normal to forget every single second of it except for snippets of good times.

I don't like to think about how I tend to forget when Ido chores, that was me, right? Why do i not remember putting things away?

As someone with adhd, depression, and anxiety, disassociation is a trip. Which version dam I getting: full emotional shutdown with me unable to even feel my own limbs, the false me, or "woah where am i"

#adhd #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #disassociation

Kristen Bell on Living with Depression and Anxiety | Body Stories

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EPnNOlxF8M

https://mindcreatesmeaning.com/kristen-bell-on-living-with-depression-and-anxiety-body-stories/

#anxiety #Depression #disassociation #disconnection #mentalhealth #selfcare

“Suddenly, I had a radical new discipline — and it is a discipline — of being present in the moment, of living one life at a time, each one fully.”

The name for this is #disassociation + #mindfulness

https://www.cnbc.com/2019/08/27/suzy-welch-the-4-words-that-transformed-my-life-as-a-working-parent.html

I've recently been thinking a lot about my relationship with #videogames and how that relates to me being a #trans egg for three decades.

At this point I feel it's very likely that games have been a major outlet for #escapism and #disassociation throughout my life. Don't get me wrong, I still love games and I'll probably play them for the rest of my life but given everything I've learned about myself these past months, my relationship to my #gender, and how my desire to play seems to correlate with the levels of #dysphoria I experience, it would be foolish to reject the possibility that this lifelong hobby has been more than a source of entertainment.

Feels like a lot to unpack tbh