Another sketch from my main Black Butler AU that I now think looks awful and plan to redraw. Also including my original ramble:
Trying to write a Black Butler AU with some fluff where Sebastian and Ciel have a parent-child like relationship WHILE keeping them in-character (Sebas more than Ciel tbh) and still basing it on canon material but making changes and making said changes make sense requires a bit of work ngl.
I mean, I know itās just a project Iām doing for fun and technically thereās nothing stopping me from going nuts and making them completely OOC and disregarding canon at all, but I feel then itād become a separate story with new, original characters who simply happen to be inspired by Kuro (which is also okay, and who knows, maybe in the future Iāll repurpose the whole thing to create my own Kuro-inspired original story, even if I donāt think Iāll ever fully lose interest in Kuro, this cursed series has me in a chokehold lmao).
Sebastian is the hardest one to write, though I think Iām finally more or less figuring it out. I didnāt want to write him as suddenly learning to love the way humans do thanks to the power of cute children or something, as it just didnāt feel natural (or I couldnāt personally make it feel natural, I know other people have managed to write that concept very well). What I have so far is that when he does act nurturing heās simply imitating the behavior of human parents he has observed, but he doesnāt love the kid the same way humans do because he literally doesnāt have that ability. BUT that doesnāt mean he feels nothing at all and that it doesnāt mean anything to Ciel, after all this weird creature is the one who saved his life and raised him with care and patience. The closest comparison I can think of is the relationship between people and āunusualā pets like reptiles, amphibians, insects, etc. We know they canāt love us the way other people (or even other mammals) would but that doesnāt make our bond any less significant! Some bits of canon material also come in handy here, for example I based the fact that familiar Sebas finds Ciel adorable as a kitten on the canon fact that he likes squishing his cheeks because they remind him of a catās paws š Just know heās an awkward demon who doesnāt know how to human but is doing his best š„ŗ
I think in Cielās case I have more freedom since he is, after all, human, and a humanās personality is strongly shaped by their environment and life experiences. Like, what exactly counts as making a character OOC? Sure, I can agree that in a fanwork set in the exact same universe with the exact same events as in canon thereās some things a character would never say or do, but I think AUs were created as a way to explore what-if scenarios. What if this character had been raised by different people? What if they had grown up in a different place? What if this or that event hadnāt happened or had gone differently? Tbh I think itās just fun to explore endless possibilities, itās maybe a form of character analysis in some way. And if we think about it, canonverse Ciel was originally sweet, shy and affectionate, and if heās the complete opposite now itās only because he went through an utterly horrific and traumatic event that forced him to grow up before his time and toughen himself up because it left him with little to no support system, on top of having to be hyper vigilant because the only thing that āsavedā him from that is a literal demon who wants his soul and is haunting him.
So I just wanted to create this alternative timeline where maybe things arenāt as terrible, or they start out as terrible but then some good things come from the most unexpected sources. Ciel is five years younger and thus has more time to process everything and try to heal as he grows up. Sebas isnāt entirely a bastard and willingly does nice things for the child, even if he still doesnāt understand human needs, and while he stills views him as a potential meal (at least at the beginning) heās actually respectful. Thereās another demon who understands humans all too well and is happy to lend a hand. His friends and the relatives he has left are more involved in his life. So Ciel more or less has a support system now, albeit a weird dysfunctional one, and doesnāt entirely lose his sweetness (also like⦠heās 5/6 at the beginning of the story, we really canāt expect a preschooler to be an edgy emo who craves violence and revenge ā ļø). I imagine he grows up to be just as calculating and cunning as canonverse Ciel, maybe even just as ruthless in his job because itās a requirement, and is still pretty much a little shit, but this Ciel is not as cold and undemonstrative. Heās still very much an introvert who prefers to be left alone, but he smiles (as in genuinely smile) more often and itās a little easier for him to express emotions and feelings (more through actions than words, but still meaningful). Hell he may allow himself to be playful and silly sometimes if heās in the moment.
And if it wasnāt clear from the picture, little Ciel ADORES Sebastian. Sure heās (understandably) a bit skittish around him at first, but once they bond he comes to fully view him as a parental figure. Yes, heās hurt, sad and traumatized, but heās still a resilient little kid, and with enough kindness Sebas can coax his old self to come out of his shell, and until the kid becomes more independent theyāre like a mama duck and her lil duckling. Their constant banter and bickering when heās older is more a teens being teens thing than anything.
From 2023
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