Happy New Year, friends. π
Before anything else, thank you, especially to the people who have supported me through this journey. The messages, check-ins, reassurance, and quiet consistency. You have helped me get through the hard stretches more than you probably realize.
Going into this new year, I want to share a few things I am holding with a full heart. I recently switched to estradiol injections, and that is a bigger deal for me than it might sound. I am genuinely afraid of needles. I still cannot look when my blood is drawn, and I have never gotten a tattoo for the same reason. But for my HRT, I found a way to push through that fear, and I am proud of myself for doing something that used to feel impossible.
After over a year on waitlists, I finally had one of my SRS consults, and I have another one scheduled for next year. And yes, I am scared, but I have done my research, watched so many videos of other people's experiences (including the surgery itself), and after talking with the surgeon, I have rarely felt this sure about anything. I am genuinely excited for this milestone, because I know it is going to help my mental health and overall well being in a way I have needed for a long time.
Today I also got on the waitlist for FFS, even though the consult is way out in 2029. It is a lot to sit with, but it is still forward movement, and I am trying to let that count.
Even with all of that, I want to name something harder, too. The vast majority of my friends and family have given me their full support, and I am deeply grateful for that. But I also have to say goodbye to my college best friend. After I came out to her, I received textbook transphobia, followed by a promise that we would work things out. I sent her a heartfelt email explaining that this is the real me, and she promised she would respond, but that answer never came, not for the past six months. I put the ball on her side and went no contact, and now I need to do myself a favor and close that chapter for good. It hurts a lot, but I cannot keep putting time and effort into a clearly one-sided relationship.
To everyone who has supported me, and everyone reading this: I hope the new year is gentle with you, and that you feel loved, safe, and supported. Happy New Year. π
#TransJoy #TransHealthcare #NewYears #ChosenFamily
Jess Mahler
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