I really need to get it detailed
Sometimes I go into #littlespace. How #little I get varies widely, but usually super little.
I #pee myself more easily in littlespace, too.
I turn into a very #NeedyGirl. I can't do #chores. I need somebody to take #care of me, talk to me like a #baby, #hold me, #kiss and #cuddle me, #play with me, tuck me in for #sleepytime, #change my #panties when I have #cute #accidents, #hug me when I #cry, and give me lots of #praise and #reassurance.
Sometimes I spend days at a time in littlespace.
Being โnormalโ
I've always felt like I was different from all the others. I thought differently, I sensed differently, I moved differently, I loved differently... But, this is not really about my mental state of being. Well, it is, but not directly. It plays a part of it all, as I do believe that my different way of thinking also makes me feel this way about me, trying to be normal. What I mean with being normal is: living a life like I am "supposed" to be living it. Doing the things that one is supposed to do on a daiy basis. Not just eating, sleeping, visiting the loo. But also in the way of running a household, even though it's "just"a household of one... (8 more sleeps... then Koa will be joining me! ๐ค). [โฆ]Dirty Dishes Stalemate Reaches Plastic Fork Stage
Apologies for digressing somewhat into the weeds: the point is that all of this figuring-stuff-out on an #AISH (provincial #disability pension) that has not risen since 2016, is expensive, time- and (personal)energy-intensive AND are all genuinely monumental accomplishments given my disabilities and lack of functionality in extreme heat.
My #mitigations don't even necessarily make things comfortable, they just make it less-likely I'll die from preventable consquences of #ExtremeHeat.
And this point is important, because I HAVE been successful in not-dying (yay! ๐), but the mitigations are NOT SUFFICIENT for me to live a 'normal life' (my normal, under my normal range of restrictions/challenges) during the #FireSeason and #HeatSeason.
IOW, not a lot of extras get done during these extended periods.
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In light of the above--a combination of increasing environmental stressors that negatively affect my #disability management and day-to-day functionality against a background of ongoing pandemic--it should come as no surprise that my #SocialHousing unit is presently the very opposite of tidy.
Annual stretches of multi-month #physical non-functionality from #ExtremeHeat (and also often terrible #AirQuality) make it tough to keep up with all but the most basic tasks.
And for many #disabled folks, our disablities, chronic #MedicalConditions, necessary #medications, and so forth may already have made "keeping up with the basics" pretty challenging in the best of times.
And these are NOT the best of times. Not by a long shot.
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