I MADE IT TO THE END OF THE SEASON, AND I'M SO FUCKING SAD

MY FAVORITE FICTIONAL OLD MAN IS DYING

AND I CAn't tell anyone that I actually know 

I'm gonna put off the next episode till the weekend… it's Thursday here still. I wanted to draw today, but today, now, is a day
I get to lie on my newly vacuumed floor,
take shallow breaths,
and try
to get over myself.

#I-honestly-stopped-at-s9-for-momentary-grief-at-losing-Clara #but-the-next-longer-story-I-wanna-write-may-have-13-in-it-too #for-time-wimey-plot-twists #I-MUST #keep-calm-and-carry-on #IT-HAD-TO-HAPPEN-SOMETIME #BUT-I'M-SO-FUCKING-SAD #I-DON'T-WANNA-BE-SAD #EVRYTHING-CAME-TOGETHER-SO-WELL #breathing-is-hard #why-did-it-hit-so-fucking-hard #I'm-happy-for-Bill #evrything-wrapped-up-so-good #EXCEPT-MY-BOI #HE-RE-DEAD-ERATING #FUUUUUUUCCCK #I'M-SCARED-TO-WATCH-MORE-BECAUSE-I'M-SCAred-to-lose-him #FUCK-ME-AND-MY-SHALLOW-SHORT-SOGHTED-OBSESSIONS-AND-THIS #IS-SO-DUMB #WAIT-A-SECOND #how-did-all-those-ppl-escape-the-400mi-ship #doctorwho #scrapbooking

So....his appointments so far are horrific, as expected. The damage will be horrific. Oh, I want recounts in the swing states because I want to know what happened. Happy Monday. #BreathingIsHard