Sometimes I Remember What Bending My Spine Feels Like

My body is falling apart.  It was happening slowly, then I had a hysterectomy and now it’s happening not so slowly. When I lie on my left side, now my right leg longer than my left, above the knee.  Which is interesting, because my legs were measured over a year and a half ago from the hips and that’s not the longer leg. My spine is collapsing in on itself. My hips are contorting, my spine is corksrewing like a single helix, and sometimes when I lie in the bed just right depending on […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/20/sometimes-i-remember-what-bending-my-spine-feels-like/

On Forgiveness

I had someone repeatedly beg me to “not be mad at me for the things I did,” his words, a while ago.  What exactly did he do? Which thing, of the several I’d accused in the past, was I accurate about? I knew what I was angry about, but without an actual confession, with a blanket appeal for forgiveness without the itemized list, what was I to not be mad about?  I will never know.  That was December of 2024. It took me to October of 2025 to tell him in writing, that, why no, […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/19/on-forgiveness/

Love is Not Enough

Here is what I know: Love is not enough. Love is never enough. Love is not enough to make a relationship work. It’s just not. And I know, I know: the romantics out there would say to me: What in the world are you talking about? Love can only be enough. But…..this is what I know: Love is just not enough. I know this at a visceral, core-of-my-being.  Love is not enough.  You cannot love someone into living into their potential. You cannot love someone into actually trying. You […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/18/love-is-not-enough/

RE: https://mastodon.social/@hootalex/116755356831043949

tiny wings hover
delicate aerobatics
hummingbird feeder

clever art of prim shaping
callback 1980s tones

#tanka #art #appreciation

Calming the Ghosts

Jared and I are at Gallery Row, and Jared is engrossed in this work project he has been working on for at least a solid two weeks straight, and for once he was thrilled to call our date a “working date,” despite the fact that most of the time when I want to bring my laptop to Gallery Row to write, Jared says he doesn’t need his laptop; that he is happy to work off his phone.  Which, to understand that, Jared has a Google Pixel Fold, so he does actually have massive phone screen real […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/13/calming-the-ghosts/

I’m Good

In this poem, I explore the value of art and the often-overlooked struggle of artists seeking genuine support. While I express gratitude for my journey and affirm that I am doing well despite challenges, I also question why society finds it easier to admire art than to actively support the people who create it. Through this piece, I encourage readers to reflect on their role in uplifting artists, recognizing that art survives not only through appreciation but also through meaningful support […]

https://fedhajnrblog.wordpress.com/2026/06/10/im-good/

I’m Trying

In 2011, I qualified for SSDI at first application, without an attorney. I started attempting to go back to work in 2018. There have been lots of attempts to return to work at this point, all reported to the SSA.  I desperately want to NOT need SSDI. It is NOT fun. It is not an aspiration.  They know I have the photography business; I have applied for all kinds of jobs that weren’t ideal fits in desperate attempts to find any sort of employment that would allow myself to work off […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/09/im-trying/

Taming the Mess and the Schedule

The inside of our home is now my sanctuary. In late April, I brought in someone to help me start cleaning up our house. To say the boys’ rooms were problematic was an understatement. It wasn’t their fault: We have five pets, and I hadn’t gotten in to help them declutter or clean much in probably three years.  Over the course of three visits, my helper and I tamed the mess entirely.  The first visit, we tackled Porter’s room. I’d already packed up a good bit of things that […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/08/taming-the-mess-and-the-schedule/

The Hands That Stayed(A letter for my grandpa)



There are men who become fathers
without ever needing the title.

Not by name.
Not by claim.
But by presence.

You were one of them.

You stepped into the quiet gap where absence had settled for years—not with noise,not with promise,but with consistency.

I did not have to wonder if you would show up.
You simply did.

In small ways first—in the way you spoke my name like it mattered,in the way you asked questions and waited for answers,
in the way you looked at me without hesitation
or comparison or distance.

You did not try to replace what was missing.

You became something else entirely—something steady enough to stand beside it without fear.

There is a kind of love that does not demand recognition. It simply gives.

And you gave.

Not loudly.
Not dramatically.

But in the everyday weight of showing up,of staying,of choosing presence
again and again without needing applause for it.

You taught me that fatherhood is not always inheritance—sometimes it is decision.

Sometimes it is a man choosing to be soft where others were not,choosing to be firm where life was not fair,choosing to hold space without making it about himself.

I learned strength from you.
But I also learned gentleness.

The kind that does not confuse silence with distance.
The kind that understands that love is not proven once,but practiced over time.

And so I carry you differently from om the others.

Not as absence.
Not as loss.
Not as question.

But as something given freely and  received fully.

A quiet kind of grace that does not ask to be repaid—only remembered.

And I remember.

In the way I stand.
In the way I speak.
In the way I refuse to accept less than presence
when love is what is being offered.

Because you showed me what it looks like
when love chooses to stay.

Love always,

Nana 🤍

#Gratitude #Love #appreciation #Letters #lettersToMyFather #Life #memories #presence

I Forgot to Answer

Photo credit: Virginia Hall I don’t even remember how I got to that guy’s hotel room. He was staying at the Marriott downtown, which was uncharacteristic of him at the time.  I do remember stopping for gas in Stockbridge on the way to pick him up. I was wearing a purple dress with thin straps that had sequins on them. It was relatively low cut; I couldn’t wear a bra with the dress because of the straps and low cut issues. I do remember the smile from a random guy when I stopped to […]

https://carolineprice.com/2026/06/05/i-forgot-to-answer/