It has now been a month since I started on wegovy and something that’s been a bit of a *moment* is realising my diet may not be an intrinsic part of who I am.

It’s easy to assume after 40 years of being in a bigger body that it must be your fault somehow.
Society certainly likes to not so much insinuate this as shout it loudly, in your face, at every opportunity.
Other people are not fat. It must be because you’re lazy. You lack the willpower.

How I assumed weight loss medications worked was to punish you if you didn’t stick to a low fat, low carb, low fun existence.

Eat a crumb of cake? Diarrhoea.
Have yourself some full fat yoghurt? Vomiting for you!

But my experience has (thankfully) been none of that. Yes, I’ve had / am having stomach issues. But not because of my diet per se or because I’m being punished for what I’m eating.
The meds slow my digestive system right down to the point where by the time food comes to the *exit*, every nutrient and every drop of water has been absorbed instead of flying through my body barely touching the sides. This is a good thing, mostly. Except for the exiting part, or lack thereof.

Aside from learning how much fibre to add without shitting myself, I mostly eat what I want. Seriously.
But snacking is almost nonexistent. I don’t really think about food between meals. When I do snack I find it so much easier to eat a smaller amount from a bag of crisps and leave the rest. “Food noise” has *drastically* decreased. The difference is genuinely mind blowing.

I dropped my breakfast of porridge this morning. What did I have instead?
An apple and a handful of macadamia nuts.
Who even am I?

The meds are not magic. I haven’t suddenly discovered what nutrition is or the ability to stop shoving McDonald’s in my face. My brain chemicals are just becoming more balanced so I make healthier choices without thinking. The last part is important.

I’m not saying I couldn’t have done that before. I could have.
But it’s like getting glasses or starting adhd meds (so I’m told).
You suddenly see the leaves on the trees. The vyvanse makes the world go quiet and it’s easier to think straight.

It’s like finding out you are the only one who has an invisible hippo named Gerald who screams at you 24/7.

You ask yourself - is this how it is for everyone else this whole time? Does nobody else have a Gerald??

Something that hit me hard when I got my autism diagnosis at 39 was if you’ve spent your entire life thinking that the world is just LOUD and if you’re the one who gets overwhelmed then it must be your fault. Be better.

Maybe this medication turns off Gerald and I find out I’ve still been living on hard mode this whole time.

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I guess I knew it was a possibility with starting HRT this week - I’ve gained for the first time since beginning wegovy.

Up 1.2kg / 2.64lbs.

I’ve been tracking my calories in an app for the past few days just for evidence to myself that I am in a deficit.
I’m not even reaching 2000 per day from what I can tell, which is well below my maintenance number, almost in the vlcd range.

The evidence points very much towards the HRT being the culprit but I still feel defeated.
I suppose all I can do is acknowledge that and try to be kind to myself.

Starting the next stage of titration today so onwards and… preferably in a more downwards direction 🤞

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The noticeable effects have pretty much vanished. I feel a bit “meh” the day of the jab but that’s it.
I don’t notice feeling fuller more quickly any more like I did in the first week.

Next week I start my new dose (0.5mg), but I’m still nowhere near what they say is the dose that’s supposed to be most effective (2.4mg) so I’m happy I’m apparently going the right way already.

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