Show threadDroppie [farcebk] πŸ¨β™€πŸŒˆπŸ§β€‹πŸ¦˜Feb 16

@nixCraft your perspective could not possibly be more inimical to my existence. it feels naive or even smug. in my 40s i transitioned. it didn't work, coz i don't pass, so after several years of just trying to put on a brave face, i gave up & quit the physical world, staying home alone in my house. that was over two decades ago. in the intervening period, much of the world has descended into naked violence [rhetorical, political, legal, physical] against peeps like me, so the chances of me emerging from my home again are even less now in my 60s than in my later 40s & 50s. i'm glad if some humans sufficiently have their shit together to be as blasΓ© as your statement, but hey, not all of us do.

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

Zeitgeisty AphorismsJan 28
Far from #unworthy #guilttrip #narcissist #Fallen, far from #whoweare #GodsPlan #brokenness #crucifixion.
Ham on WryJan 16

Just a reminder: Trump did NOT win the Nobel Peace Prize.

MarΓ­a Corina Machado won the award and presented Trump with her medal after being pressured (bullied) to do so.

Ironically, Trump’s childish whining and pressure campaign is a stark reminder of why he was unworthy of the Nobel from the start.

#machado #Venezuela #MAGA #trump #nobel #republicans #loser #news #unworthy

Show threadDroppie [opensoc]Dec 30

had a little chat thru the back screen door with him, asked if he'd like a glass of cold water. we reviewed the work done so far, what else is left, what he'll tackle next today, what he'll have to leave til next time coz soon he'll be running into the appointment time of his next job. on that, he mentioned

need to go around to a lady's place to sort out a lock for her


he seems a thoroughly pleasant & courteous bloke, has always been so with me in each of our prior discourses [ie, the previous jobs he's done for me], yet, such is my terrible skullgoo, that i fixed then fixated on his not saying

need to go around to another lady's place to sort out a lock for her


similar thing happens with my mowing bloke, who i've used for very many years & who has always been great with me [& indeed, we often indulge in much silly banter]. typically when he mentions other clients, jobs, to me, he similarly mentions "a lady" or "a woman", but not "another lady" or "another woman".

it all accumulates in me, & just amply reinforces my sense of failure, thus futility.

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

Droppie [opensoc]Dec 29

handypeep running 50 minutes, & one month, late. already nervous-stewing in my throat-covering poloneck jumper & tinted facial spakfilla, now i have extra time for the defective skullgoo to run amok with my "equanimity" [sic].

sigh. wouldn't be dead for quids...

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

Droppie [opensoc]Dec 27

yet more nightmares of betrayal, failure, imposture

yet more daylight of utter despair

uh, must be a day ending in y

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

Droppie [opensoc]Dec 10

bbc.com/news/articles/c1dz0g2y…

in the 90s, i had to go to merka twice, many weeks at a time, for training at some of my small merkan multinational employer's sites

in the early to mid 00s i underwent my full #transition, over a three year period, whilst working for the ginormous merkan multinational that had in the meanwhile bought my hitherto employer. they were empathic & supportive of me throughout, for which i remained ever grateful, notwithstanding their frequently stupid merkan corporate culture & practices

over recent years i have often played a mind-game with myself, as i observe merka's descent into failed state status, a horrific fascist dystopia of hatred, violence, & idiocy, & ask myself "what would you have done, Droppie, if the timing had been different, such that you had been required to travel to that evil hellhole as it is now, in your post-transition sadly-unpassing present state?" ofc i am certain beyond a shadow of doubt i would have refused outright, so i wonder what that would have done to my employment, my career, my... well, lots of stuff.

#USPol #TuckFrump #FuckRWNJs #magamorons #FuckChristoFascists #FuckAllReligion #OrangeOaf #HeyFascistCatch
#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

US could ask tourists for five-year social media history before entry

The plan would affect people from countries, including the UK, who can fill out a form in lieu of a visa.

DroppieNov 8

there's a state of being that some term #suicidality . wikipedia says

Suicidal ideation, or suicidal thoughts, is the thought process of having ideas or ruminations about the possibility of dying by #suicide. It is not a diagnosis but is a symptom of some mental disorders, use of certain psychoactive drugs, and can also occur in response to adverse life circumstances without the presence of a mental disorder. On suicide risk scales, the range of suicidal ideation varies from fleeting thoughts to detailed planningi know this personally, but tbh there was only one time i might have actually proceeded, ~15 years ago.

IMO there's another state of being with which i'm intimately familiar, as it replaced that suicidality many years ago. i suppose i'd clumsily try to describe it as being not a sense of wanting to die, but instead [some might fail to grasp or allow this nuance, i suppose] not being interested in or motivated by a want to be alive, an absence of want of life. maybe the former is active, whereas the latter is passive?

maybe in fact this is bullshit? maybe this is just merely #nihilism & #depression, poncing about trying to persuade me of something else?

oh well, it doesn't matter. life goes on. unfortunately. sadly.

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream

DroppieSep 7, 2025
https://womensagenda.com.au/latest/a-social-lifeline-how-talking-cafes-are-supporting-older-australians-to-fight-loneliness/

Nice idea for those whom it can help. πŸ‘πŸ’―

Kinda sorta implicitly presumes, though, that a peep is able & willing to be seen. πŸ€”

#Depression #SelfLoathing #SocialPhobia #FailedTransition #PostOp #Transwoman #Transphobia #Unworthy #Nihilism #ExistentialFutility #SuicideIdeation #spoons #PrimalScream
β€˜A social lifeline’: How talking cafes are supporting older Australians to fight loneliness

Talking Cafes are casual events that offer older people in the community a chance to sit at a cafe and have a chat with someone new.

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RonSupportsYouJun 19, 2025
"Trump replaces Hillary Clinton's first lady painting with meme of himself":
https://www.rawstory.com/hillary-clinton-painting/
#petty #unworthy #Trump
Trump replaces Hillary Clinton's first lady painting with meme of himself

Reuters White House Correspondent Jeff Mason posted a photo to X of a wall in the White House where former first lady Hillary Clinton's portrait once hung. The wall features paintings of first ladies in chronological succession, with Laura Bush and Barbara Bush, and between them would commonly be Cl...

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