Three times a year, 30 people at the Missouri prison where Jeshua Noel is incarcerated are chosen for what's known as a family restoration visit — a chance to wear your own clothes, eat food brought in by loved ones, and take a walk or play games with them. Only those who've met certain behavioral criteria are eligible, and then it's luck of the draw. This year, Jeshua was lucky. He describes what it was like. "It was beautiful to see my mother, grandmother and wife outside, to show them my temporary home. But I’m angry that reconnection is a controlled reward in prison, held just out of reach like bait."