I believe I just experienced the other end of must be what I have been calling a Mirror Moment. There are many types. This one as in...

I find a mirror every day and say (observe/do/be) what I need, until I believe it 🪞

#YesAnd

Understanding when I see part of my heart and soul and mind in someone I love. This moment with, a friend and former lover. I understand that in those moments when I am whole, it's usually enough to observe, without saying.

#SelfHypnosis
#imagination
#SelfAwareness

I read about self-hypnosis when I was a kid. Probably like 8 years old, in an encyclopedia. I also had an early interest in psychology, which was piqued by my mom's aversion to it in med school and then in her religious practices when she got weird about stuff with me. I remember reading about things like subliminal messaging, and wondering which ones actually worked and how.

Religiously, hypnosis and self-hypnosis were banned. But I didn't see anything wrong with the idea of trying to learn something by listening to it while I slept. That felt different, somehow.

I look back at the memories I wrapped up in Suzanne Vega's music, which I listened to on so many nights as I fell asleep as a teen. Not just the song Luka, which I didn't even realize my connection to until several years after choosing the names Lucas & Luke in 2015.

But also my Observer found solace in Tom's Diner, which was how I originally found connection to her music. And I eventually lost my discomfort with my Observer through listening to this song.

My heartbreak was later bound by the song Calypso - knowing I had to lose my first love to save myself from circumstances. Promising myself I could someday have everything.

I have no idea how any of this works, I just know I've always been determined to survive until I figured something better out. And that I've finally figured out that my compulsive repetition has had a purpose, to help me find my own history.

Listening to her songs now often brings me closer to myself. Makes me happy that I could take bits and pieces of things I'd heard at that age, and create safety for myself and lock away the most magical inner parts of me, until I could reach safety.

I keep having these moments where I remember the feeling of pondering what words I'd unlock myself with, if I could figure out self-hypnosis. I must have been about 15 years old. Thinking I could lock away the pain until I was allowed to feel it and have control over my existence.

I did it. And now when memories surface, I experience the pain as joy. Joy at how I protected myself from moments of pure horror.

Joy that I created Lucas from Luka, and didn't know it in the front of my mind. Joy that I recognized Luqa as who Luka has survived to become, and gave myself this freedom to explore, even before I gave myself this name. Joy that I have creation and art and beauty inside of me in this moment. Joy that I understand where my now is leading me for my future. Joy that creating myself will allow me to be more than a reaction to horror, that I had been Becoming. Joy that I know that I will find my flow with the calling I feel in my soul, when I have myself ready to answer that call.

I wonder if I have anything I actually need a keyword to unlock with. 🤔

I know I tried various things like wrapping parts of me into music over the years, but I can't remember any of them now - except for pouring my pain into the recognition I felt in the rhythm of this particular music, and a few other specific songs by Eurythmics and The Cure, and a few others. I wonder if I could recreate that mixtape I built, and reconnect to that version of myself as a Time Traveler.

I guess I can ask myself several interesting questions next time I feel the flow of writing that way. I haven't explored my music memories much beyond finding Luqa, because I want no interruptions to this discovery, and I know I'm almost to a protected space for that.
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I wonder if I should tell people who wonder how the fuq I can isolate so deeply from current events that I'm in the equivalent of an inpatient program of recovery and therapy. Except I'm the one protecting myself from the outside world, until I can find the right inner balance to coexist with what everyone else is calling reality, again. But its reality that I'm trying to recover from. So I'll let my therapist help me figure that out. And reality is mine to create, until We decide that healing has happened.

Waiting is.
#nomad #magic #plurality #TimeTravel #SelfHypnosis #imagination #therapy #recovery

Hot Flashes - Stop the Heat — Find Your Inner Cool.

#Menopause can bring powerful changes, but that doesn’t mean you have to live with constant discomfort. This guided audio MP3 offers a simple, natural way to help reduce hot flashes and regain control of your body’s rhythm.

#hypnosis #selfhypnosis #menopause #hotflashes

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https://youtube.com/watch?v=yW-GlcRAeDo&si=CsAMBTXRoqyxkB3X

Self hypnosis relaxation

#hypnosis #selfhypnosis

I tried some self hypnosis last night to get to sleep. I was lying in bed and counted down from 30, telling myself to get sleepier and heavier with each number.

Didn't pass out like I hoped, but I got to a crazy, trippy dream space and drifted there for a bit. I guess I'll take hypnotic lucid dreaming over insomnia.

#hypnosis #SelfHypnosis #sleep

Health and Happiness with Hypnosis Day.

#hypnosis #selfhypnosis#hypnotherapy #hypnotist Today is 25th July and this day is celebrated as Health and Happiness with Hypnosis Day. Through hypnosis people are relieved from their pain and suffering. The misconceptions people have about hypnosis are removed. Hypnosis is such a process through which our stress is reduced.

https://itsmostamazingindia.wordpress.com/2025/07/25/health-and-happiness-with-hypnosis-day/

I'm updating my Patreon with many of the hypnosis files so many of my members enjoy. Come and check it out. https://www.patreon.com/fionadobsonCD

#erotichypnosis #hypnosis #selfhypnosis #crossdressing

Casey’s Journey: Why She Chose Spiritual Coaching & Self-Hypnosis

The benefits of hypnosis go far beyond the surface—unlock confidence, self-love, emotional resilience, and so much more on your healing journey. Ready to invest in you? Acknowledging yourself is essential in addressing any problem, as it fosters self-awareness, empowers you to take responsibility, and creates a foundation for emotional healing. #SelfHealing #SelfHypnosis #MindfulnessJourney…

https://amythehypnotist.wordpress.com/2024/11/23/caseys-journey-why-she-chose-spiritual-coaching-self-hypnosis/