Don't litter, kids.

#running #RoadChocolate #NotDeadYet

So yeah, I'm still here. I'm trying to get rid of the weight the treatment has given me, unsuccessfully.

I have no sex drive at all, my body hair has changed, my self image is appalling, my back hurts all the time and my body temperature is out of control. Hot flushes, yay.

But I'm still here. Fuck cancer.

#cancer #prostate #stillhere #notdeadyet

Between the three of them, I'm still here

Chemotherapy is awful.
The injections for the testosterone suppression are awful.
The side effects of both are awful.

But I'm still here. If I'd had no symptoms, I wouldn't be. Pretty stark.

As is seeing the box for "palliative treatment, not curable" ticked on your treatment consent form.

#cancer #prostate #stillhere #notdeadyet

... And thus started a load of clinical investigations, which showed that I had a very enlarged prostate (the size of an orange), I didn't have intrusions into my bladder or bowel, but I did have masses in my lymph system. Big masses. Serious, life threatening masses.

But! Nothing in my bones, unlike Sir Chris Hoy. So no radiotherapy.

However, it did mean:
* Testosterone suppression
* Chemotherapy
* Tablets for the rest of my life

#cancer #prostate #stillhere #notdeadyet