I'm starting to realize how the complexity of my personality was totally incompatible with the relationship between my former wife and myself. Realizing that I am AuDHD, aromantic, asexual and nonbinary provides answers to so many conflicts we've had throughout the years and which finally lead to our divorce.
My wife always wished for a partner with "manly" features and I've always had problems to deliver that, because I didn't feel it. In turn, I never knew (and still don't) what I wished from her. For me, respecting and caring for each other has always been enough. I don't have any feelings toward any roles that one should have to fill inside a relationship.
I also don't know what I would wish from a new partner, which currently amplifies my feeling that I actually don't want any kind of close relationship. Sometimes I start thinking about how it would feel to be in a relationship again. And then all those questions, about how that relationship would need to be for me, rise up again. Which leads to my conclusion that it wouldn't be worth the spoon investment. I'm happy being alone.
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