Existential anxiety rating is at 57 %

What Is Absurdism?
https://benargon.com/absurdism-explained/

#morningthoughts

Turned my alarm off this morning.
That was a mistake, as when I woke up it was 9:45.

I used to love sleeping in when I was younger. These days I think “I have wasted the very limited number of hours in my life that are *mine* to use as I please”.

And I mean, using them to sleep is perfectly valid. But I didn’t need to sleep ten hours. I think that happened because my ADHD brain, for lack of a better description, “hyperfocuses on sleep”. It gets locked into sleep just as it would anything else that feels good and requires effort to switch away from.

I have to try to accept these feelings without judgement, while also not succumbing to self-blame and anger for sleeping in. (Honestly, avoiding getting mad at my ADHD is something I work on *constantly*, because the anger just exacerbates things and increases my propensity to withdraw and hide from my responsibilities.)

#morningthoughts