Sometimes when I try to build an IRL relationship, I'm reminded why I prefer hermitude.
It goes like this: I feel comfy w/ someone so I open up about something - could be personal, could be societal - expecting agreement or at least understanding in response. Instead, their thinking is totally orthogonal to mine & they make me feel like a weirdo.
It's not the actual disagreement that bugs me, but my misjudgment of what the other would think.
#polyam 
, y #maybeAutistic 
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desde hace muchos años, me estoy metiendo en #NixOS, #Docker 
y #Rust 
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:tbh_yippee:So anyway I stopped being able to walk for a little bit today, like at all, and that was pretty scary. It got better after sitting down for a bit but it's still bad.
I've definitely been overdoing it with my dad visiting, but also feel like sensory overload and stress are directly exacerbating my pain?? Sounds weird but I don't feel like I'm doing *that* much more than I normally do, and the stress of constant stimulation is the one thing that feels very different.
Would just wing it and that rarely ended well.
I would always hang notes at my desk that would have verbiage that made things “click” in my head. I rarely used official documents. They generally made my brain hurt. It’s all just mind blowing looking back now. I always wondered why other people didn’t do this.
Then if anything contradicted itself, and we had to deviate from the norm, well that made things even worse.
Been consuming content from autistic folk, presume it’s just relatable because humans are weird.
Nephew gets diagnosed with autism. Listen to his parents talk about why they got him assessed. Inner monologue goes “Oh. OH. OHHHHH.”
Talk to husband about getting assessed myself “Yeah that makes a lot of sense”
So now I’m on a 4/5 month waitlist to get assessed, filling out the questionnaire, when I couldn’t think of something, husband was like “what about this”
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