Lloxie 
2-17-2026 Update
Just letting y'all know I finally posted a new update over on my https://lloxie.dreamwidth.org/871.html! You should be able to view it without an account, so let me know if you have any issues!
Derpfops Update
So first of all, sorry for my deafening silence and general lack of activity lately. My brain is a fuck and my body's not much better, what can I say? :s
Before I go any further, let me just reiterate that I am most active on discord, especially my own server. (Please don't randomly DM me on there though!) There is a link to it, and all my other platforms, on my https://lloxie.carrd.co/ site!
So yeah, what have I been up to? Well... various personal/real life things, and frankly spending way too much time on Twitch hanging out with various (admittedly wonderful) furry streamers and their communities. And drawing, occasionally. But not as much as I should. I've done way too little writing as well, and for that I seriously apologize. Just seems like time flies by way too fast anymore.
The first few months of the year have been... rough, to say the least. My mental health has been iffy to downright bad more often than not. And that's even while trying to avoid the news/current events as much as possible. My physical health has been subpar, too. To be fair, some of all that comes down to some bad habits I'm trying to work on. I've definitely been overdoing it on booze for a little while now, so I'm trying to cut back. Same with caffeine. My sleep pattern has been royally fucked for a while now too, and I'm oh-so-slowly working on that as well. The result of all this is I tend to be dead tired most of the time, and my anxiety keeps creeping back on a more frequent basis.
But like I said, I'm working on it. I promise I haven't abandoned MHO- far from it. In fact, I have refsheets for Lykou and Kuna in the works right now and I plan on commissioning some art of them, particularly of specific moments and scenes in the story so far. I also want to make some cover art for each book in the series. And I've considered going back and doing some serious editing of the first three or so books, in advance of ultimately posting it on Wattpad.
I've also been working on notes and such for the Xenterra setting- the one that includes Horizon Springs. (The city that Brooke, Kael, and Milo live in.) Yeah, I finally picked a name for it. I have a lot more lore and such than those two little stories I have up right now would imply, and I'm slowly working on compiling it in a way that I can share it somehow. I'm also working on getting art of the characters. I have a proper refsheet for Ikarsi queued with in artist, and if that works out well, I'll com Milo's from them as well. In the meantime, I'm intermittently working on making refsheets, or at least ref images as a basis to com refsheets from, for Brooke, Kael, and characters from other, upcoming stories. I actually already made a refsheet for one character that I'll be uploading soon- an arctic fox named Noah. He's actually the main character of a short story I've intermittently worked on for a while now called Level Up, which I'll also hopefully finish soon.
I guess that's it for now. Just figured I was overdue to post a little update about myself. Hope you're all doing alright!
Merry Xmas!
Happy holidays to everyone that sees this! Whether or not you celebrate any, I hope you have a nice time this end of the year. <3
Sorry I haven't posted a proper update in forever. I've just been insanely busy lately. I plan to do a big end-of-the-year recap on New Years or so, and I'll talk about it more there. But yeah, I'm quite an exhausted phasefops, hehe.
Love to all~
Weekly Update (11-18-2024)
Sorry about not doing a proper update last week. Yeahhhh, that election.... fuck this country, and kiss my ass if that offends you. I've been trying to keep myself distracted and not think about it too much so I can just try and enjoy what's left of the year, seeing as October-December is my favorite time of year by far and it always flies by way too fast to begin with. And I'm not letting some fascist fuckers take that from me this year.
That said, I'm at the point of reassessing what I'm doing with my life, and this has given me all the more reason to try and get the fuck out of the south. Need to get to a blue or at least purple state first, and eventually see about emigrating to Europe. Need to find a place near someone I know though- don't want to end up in a brand new place with nobody I know around. I'll be leaving what support network I have here behind when I leave, afterall. Hopefully I'll be able to keep in touch with my brother and his family, but I feel like things may get more strained with my folks. I'm tired of just avoiding certain subjects and going along to get along. In 2016 I can see why people voted the way they did, and could forgive them; in 2020 it was pure partisan bullshit, which is detestable but unfortunately just a fact of life that I don't have the energy to combat. But at this point it's pure deranged cult-like mentality and they're totally divorced from reality and reason. But anyway, enough of that.
On a lighter note, the art splurging continues. Yeah I know, I should be saving money, but fuck it. It's for my mental health, okay? Plus it's supporting artists I enjoy, in several cases ones that really need the money more than me right now anyway, so weh! :P
I can't apologize enough for my positively glacial writing output these last few months. Life's been a mess. Pardon my whining, but this year's sucked in a lot of ways, including both my physical and mental health. Mental breakdown, covid, blood pressure issues, iron deficiency, sleep issues, fucking *shingles* (like 12+ years earlier than most people get it, thanks body <_<), reflux, etc....
Rest assured I AM working on things though. I have the next bit started for MHO and Accidental Summoning, and I have a fair chunk of a couple more short stories written. On the art front, I've started working on a new refsheet for my sona. No major changes, just felt like I could make some things clearer and maybe some minor tweaks, plus it's good practice.
Anyway... can't think of anything else to add at the moment. Hang in there, folks. Next few years are gonna be rough, to put it mildly, but that's just all the more reason for us to look out for one another. Stay strong, and stay in the fight!
Weekly Update (11-4-2024)
Yep, updating on time again for once, wheee! Unfortunately, due to the timing, you know what I have to mention. The election is tomorrow. Normally I try to avoid putting politics in these posts, but it's totally unavoidable here because honestly it's weighing heavily on me. I've managed to put off thinking about it too much until the past week or so, but now that it's this close, it's getting harder and harder to do so, and my anxiety is on a rapid climb. I'm terrified, for many good reasons. If even a fraction of project 2025 were to get implemented, it'd be an unmitigated nightmare.
I don't expect to sway any of the cultists. But if you're on the fence or thinking about sitting it out... please, please, PLEASE go vote for Harris and Walz. If you never do anything else for me, at least do that. I can't- nay, *won't* survive a new MAGA regime. Please don't let any excuse get in the way. Vote. Do it as early in the day as possible, too. Would be nice to avoid another "red mirage" scenario that'd fuel the conspiracy theorists this time.
If I can get to sleep early enough tonight, I'm gonna plan on trying to be at the polls when they open tomorrow. It shouldn't be this fucking close. I don't pray, but if I did, I'd absolutely be praying that the polls are somehow massively understating Harris and Walz. If the world had any decency, they'd be up at least 40 points. It's horrifying that there are so many people that can still support the far right extremists that have completely taken over the GOP. I don't know how I'm going to survive the next few days either way. One thing's for sure, I'm glad I have my thc gummies. I'll need them just to sleep, at the very least.
That said, if I can manage to focus enough, I want to work on some writing and drawing this week. Just to try and get my head off the election, I'll go ahead and list some things I intend to work on.
Writing:
- MHO (obviously)
- Some short vignettes featuring my phasefox OCs
- The fourth installment of Accidental Summoning
- a new story very loosely based on something I wrote like 20 years ago (if you find my old dA, it's Watching Over You)
- whatever else strikes my fancy...
Drawing:
- a new Lloxie refsheet
- at least one more ArtF*ck pic (I have a potential target already picked out ;3)
- finish a lewd pinup I was working on
- finish the amphimorpho OC drawing I was working on
- Draw new pics of my phasefox OCs. Need to properly introduce them to people!
- one of various lewd or risque ideas I've been stacking up >> << possibly involving one of my friends~ ;3
...aaaaanyway yeah, I'm gonna go try and keep myself busy to get my mind off the election now so I don't give myself an anxiety-induced heart attack now, heh.
Weekly Update (10-28-2024)
Huzzah, I'm updating on time for once! ...well, on the right day, anyway. xD I can't believe Halloween is already almost here! Seems like the month just started yesterday! Oof.
Well anyway, I'm back from my trip. It was nice, but unfortunately besides souvenirs, I came back with one more thing that's not so nice- a virus. Man, this year has just not been great for my health. First the mental health trainwreck in the first quarter of the year, then the nasty covid case that took me out in March, general allergy problems, having to go on meds for high blood pressure and low iron, and now this. x_X; Basically, I am in a lot of pain, particularly in my back. I'm hesitant to say what exactly it is, because people usually don't get it until they're much older, so that isn't exactly helping with my "dammit I feel old" woes. But suffice to say it comes from the same virus that causes chicken pox in kids. So now I'm in pain, and the skin on my back is sensitive and occasioanlly itchy and burny. And I'm not sure if it's from the virus or the meds I'm taking for it, but my tummy's been angy today, plus I'm totally exhausted. Definitely don't recommend this mess. I just hope I get over this crap asap....
But anyway, enough whining. As I said, the trip itself was nice! To recap, I went to the smoky mountains with family. Got to enjoy the park, Gatlinburg, Pigeon Forge, Sevierville, Townsend, etc. Among my "swag", I got some new necklaces, a really cute/pretty tie-dye shoulder bag that goes with several of my shirts very well, several new plushies (shush I don't have a problem << >>), some moonshine and quality bourbon direct from the respective distilleries, and several bracelets- including two special matching ones, one of which I plan to send off to a very special dear friend of mine when I get a chance and don't feel like crap, hehe. :3 I also got some homemade fancy nice-smelling lotions because why not. :p I think I'm slowly getting more in touch with my feminine side, heh. And I'm enjoying it. Now if only I can work up the courage to start showing it more openly, particularly in the realm of clothing... ah well, baby steps.
My splurging fest is winding down now though. I have a couple more commissions in the works but I have to pause for a while now, since I've managed to burn through most of what I had set aside for these things. I look forward to that changing again in the future, though. I think commissioning all the art I've gotten this year has been one of the most weirdly satisfying and fun ways I've splurged on myself in a long, long time. So many great artists out there.... ^^
Didn't get as much of my own writing and drawing done as I'd have liked, but at least I got that MHO chapter up finally. Going to hopefully do more this week- assuming I don't become a complete zombie because of this virus, heh. Wish me luck!