RheumatoidRebelIt’s taken me two days to sit down and write since the hospital visit. Not because the appointment itself was so awful (though I did just collapse into bed the moment I got home), but because that’s how long it’s taken me to get my head around it.
Sorry — BEGIN to get my head around it.
Because, you see, I mentioned previously that I was both relieved and upset about the upcoming appointment… Well, my upset was to do with a core distrust of big pharma and the medical system, and I had worked really hard to stay outside of it.
Now, don’t get me wrong: there are wonderful things about modern medicine. I mean, if I got in a serious car crash, for example, I want an ambulance, not a homeopath, thank you! But I’ve also seen people, especially those with chronic illness, get really fucked over by the medical system. I don’t want to over-egg it; I know there are plenty of positive cases too, but I certainly didn’t want to be part of it. But then I also didn’t want a chronic illness!
Nonetheless, I’ve had to find some acceptance around meds, at least for now, because I simply couldn’t function in the state I’ve been in for several months. I have to hang on to the belief — the light at the end of the tunnel — that the body is an amazing organism and that it is possible to heal. Not in a magical sense, but by working with my body and giving it every support possible to do its thing.
And for now, that support seems to include medication to get this disease under control.
So be it.
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