On average it is taking a full 2-3 hours for my systems to fully engage everyday, when I first drag myself out of bed I can barely see that lasts 30-45 minutes before my blurry eyes clear and I can somewhat see, my ankles knees and legs at first are stiff rigid dead weights that can take a full 2 hours before I can actually move normally, my stomach slowly becomes active and after 3 or 4 times to the throne it is finally online completely, my hands well they seem to struggle all the time now, my mind my brain seems to take at least 2 hours before I can fully process anything at all, aging with chronic fatigue constant pain being disabled and existing in poverty all take a horrible toll on the body and mind that so many either can not or chose not to see, and when your alone in life all those things add up hard and fast making every day a monumental task just to be, my existence to say the least is a battle of spite because I have long lost the strength to fight, the decline is constant and unforgiving, the loss of executive cognitive function is exhausting and having nothing more than a rather mundane and depressing routine, to try and stay the course in itself is burdensome, so many are clueless to the extreme difficulty I experience every single day, and in my 48 years of life so far, I have found people in general truly don't care, until it is themselves that are trapped in a well of disfunction and despair, they won't take the time to offer any support when support is asked , leaving a already tumultuous existence a rather bleak endeavour:
That is why it is so important I get the help I need to raise the money I am trying to raise, not only to live each day, but to buy property build a forever home and hire a personal caretaker, and maybe have the means to helps someone else like me before my time expires, $5million may seem like a big number, but when you look at it, it is not, first the cost of buying property and then building a forever home that will sustain and take care of you, I have the numbers worked out, and when all is said and done I should have $1.5million left, which works our around $37,00 a year for the next forty years, in 40 years I will be 88, assuming I live that long, $37,000 a year will empower me to care for myself cover my own expenses, and if by the Grace of God I could have more, I would be able to help others along the way, so maybe they don't have to suffer alone and as much as I have, from dinner tonight to taking a shower tomorrow, to having the security of my own forever home until I expire, your support right now means far more than you can ever fathom, so please, share support and embrace my plight with some compassion right now, thank you;
Urgent need: $20,928, Monthly survival: $1,500, Long-term liberation: $25,000 to climb out. $5 million to build a forever home and sanctuary for others like me.
If you’ve ever wondered what despair looks like, this is it. If you’ve ever wanted to make a real difference, this is your chance.
[color=green]Please help. Every dollar matters. Every share matters. Every act of compassion matters.
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